Choices, Decisions...FAR OUT!

I noticed that through EVERY single step of the day, you making decisions. You decide whether to watch TV or to have a drink. You choose whether or not your going to stay home or go somewhere. List goes on. I dont know, the day before yesterday I wanted to end something that meant alot to me. Something that has been kind of rough for me. But I realised, the only way the thing could die is if I let it die. Its just like a humna being, a sick one (I am well aware that you might not know what I'm on about) and its up to you whether the human gets better or not, I know Im not making sense much, but just bare with me. You could easily let a human die, take a baby for instance. It comes out all healthy and then gets sick. You could either leave it and let it die? Or feed it get it checked. Much better chance of the baby surviving. You could try guess what Im really talking about. Im not gonna literally say it. But its right infront of you BIG EYE BALLS.

I gotta start studying man. But where do I start? I gotta start somewhere.

Oh and my mum fully has taken over my laptop aye. Because she has these little UGLY DVD's that she wants to watch. I dont know but I had to tell her that she could watch her DVD tomorrow, koz I got shit to do, You know like facebook and shit =P NAH! I wanna apply for my uni courses.

I really wanna do B/Commerce/B/Business In C-town. The ATAR is lower there and PLUS it gives me an excuse to be close to the fams =)

Anyway OH and I plan on appologising to someone. She would be, lets just say, she is the one I've hated on the MOST out of all my 17 years of being alive. Funny enough she's family! I dont know, I really just dont want to hate on her anymore you know? And no matter what, somehow I know shes gonna be a part of my life. Truth is, I hate her? But she's family aye. Gotta love my blood still. So I was gonn take a big step and call her? BUT I think that steps just abit TOO big for me. SOO I just added her on bebo. As soon as she accepts, I'll mail her!

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IM SO SICK OF LOVE SONGS

I am really happy that I have finished DANCE (practical) just one more practical! =D It felt so good. I walked home with the biggest smile, I was so high. Well anyway I have shit to blog about thats been on my mind! Now is the time to let it loose.

I dont know...am I hanging on for nothing? Because this feeling of waiting seems all so familiar! It suckz you know. To be told something, and you believe it right? But it doesnt get carried out or doesnt even appear as if that person was genuinely being honest. Pepople speak from their hearts when they talk like that. But I think with him? Its half his heart half his ASS! I dont know. I dont have second thoughts wich is funny because I think I should. I dont know! Hearts numb at the moment. Guess this is just part of the journey LMAO

IM SO HAPPY MAN! YOU DONT UNDERSTAND! =D SO HAPPY!!!

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Was gonna blog

But Im going to sleep! I need my sleep

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Nothing

Im blogging for the pure sake of blogging. Im just gonna blog whats on my mind.

I know how to roll the dice now, I seriously do. I'll be able to tell what my components thinking by their actions! TRUST ME! I got YOU! Trust no one. Let em believe you do ;)
Its just a game....With my heart on the line. LOLOL

TIRED man! My eyes are fucking killing man! Ima jet off

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Secret Admirer

Well, I lost motivation, but after this Ima hit the logbooks straight up =)

Actually this was a waste of blog, Im off LOLOL

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MONDAY

WOO Love mondays! Nah I gotta go sleep soon aye! My motivations back =) and its up there! Im forcing it to stay up there till November 5th. It MUST stay up there. Disco next week aye. Dont know what Ima wear, but I guess I'll figure it out on the day :)

Im tired man!

I must say, its funny how things can change in a second. One minute your happy, the next your angry. All because of events. I get stressed when I study. Espeacially when I get interupted you know?

Anyway I have exceptions for interuption though. LOLOL Like facebook bebo msn and phone. Actually I have only ONE exception for telephone conversations. Need I say who?

anyway time to sleep. Gay blog I know!

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Just wanna jot some shit down

LMAO I had no idea what to tittle this blog, and I feel weird just leaving it blank, hence the shit tittle, seeing as I dont really plan what Ima write on here. I just write what comes to mind. Hence why sometimes it doesnt make sense, I mean, what I write about!!

Anyway, farrr Ive never EVER spoken soooo much to my dad before. But he made me see a difference between Samoans and Tongans which I was completely blinded to, but he oppened my eyes to it. LMAO. Tongan guys are more smooth, shall you say with tha ladies, whereas Samoans are abit like, tough and BLAH BLAH...If you get what I mean. And being a girl thats dated both NASHOS I could full see the difference, AFTER he mentioned it though =.=. Its sooo truuuueeee. Though I wont go into detail. I must say my dad was pretty up front in our little talk LMAO I wouldnt be suprised if he even added something that was TOTALLY untrue but just a little something to scare me. His like that. He has me really thinking now. My dad is the type that gets into your head. I love it though, because he does it for my own good. =) And PLUS I need that sort of talking to, koz its in my genes to get pregnant/sleep around at a young age. LMAO and Im not closed minded about it because it true. It runs in my family. Even the boys seem to like to get girls pregnant at a young age...I mean the guys in my famz! BRO am I thankfull for what to my dad though he aint my bilogical dad and he can be an ass hole at times...and TRUST ME he can be! But yeah anyway.

whats so funny is my dad and I were talking about my mum, you know, both complaining about shit she does blah blah, and now that Im in the room, he is now complaining about my mum with my DRUNK ASS brother! My dads made me aware of things that most girls arent aware of. I always have been aware, and TRUST ME. Right down to my BESTES BESTEST of guy friends? There is not one mother fucker that I trust. I mean you cant really =) But I mean, I dont know why, but I dont mind, and I try to understand, though its a bit impossible. LMAO!

Anyway, Ive sort of enjoyed my mums absence. Its real quiet, no noise, no fighting. But then theres no money no getting what I want blah blah! LOLOL I mean I could always turn to my sister and she always tells me to, but, shes got her own family to worry about. I cant just ADD myself in.

Im gonna be real tired tomorrow for school. But I sorta actually wanna just sit up in my room and just type down my thoughts. I dont know how many people read this thing, but I dont really care, I just LOVE putting my thoughts somewhere. SPEACIALLY when Im mad.

One thing that makes me REAL sad man like REAL sad. Is like in tongan...ummm what do you call it...customs!!! well it doesnt really apply as much anymore these days, but, brothers and sisters could never talk.It even went as far as boys sleep in like a granny flat outside while the girls slept inside. All to avoid incest. Now, just picturing myself having to distance myself from my brothers would just...I dont know, I think I would cry. Like, not being able to talk to them and shit, I would be devistated! LITERALLY. My younger brothers LITERALLY make my world! Cant imagine just walking past them without saying something to insult them!!!! Espeacially my younger brother Benny. These boys PLUS my dad, are the only guys in my life that I fully trust..I mean I cant trust them in playing a fair game and shit, like I remember back in the days when we always use to play nintendo 64?? Well they decided to teach me to play and I got pretty good, and even started to beat them at their own game. Let me tell you a secret about my brothers! They are the BIGGEST bunch of sore losers you'll ever meet. The fights we'd have over the game man. FARRRRR!!!! HAHAHA. Even though I was a girl it didnt matter, only thing was it mattered to my parents, so I used that as an advantage =) You know, chuck the sooky styles ;)

And now we've grown up. My little brothers are having girlfriends left right and centre. and people think I have boyfriends left right and centre too, but I dont LMAO! Yeah Im that ugly =P
Nah I think Im just abit stubborn, I dont know why, but sometimes when guys show interest in me? I start to ignore them! Like I mean FULLY ignore! I dont know why really, like I dont get anything out of it! LOLOL I just do! Oh and guys seem to be drop nuts these days, they dont talk to you....dont fuckin expect me to walk up to you koz you can dream all you like about that happening!

POO I miss my mum, I mean my actuall mum from Claymore. Anyway I think Ima stop blogging koz yeah I should REALLY stop LOLOL

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"the talk"

OML I didnt get to watch movies today. You know what I did? I had the BIGGEST talk with my dad. for THREE hours. Man I was happy, because I have been dying to speak to him about my situation. and I FINALLY did it. LMAO! when I told him I was seeing someone he was like "YEAH I know, its a litte mani'i (asian)" And I was like WTH??? "Its a Tongan dad" He sorta calm down after that, and I told him everything! EVERYTHING...Well not EVERYTHING but you know, close enough!

And yeah it was the BEST! My dad has me thinking! =)

It was a good talk, and no Im not giving out details LOL, might bore yous!

Then we went to Big mommas house (My sister)

And yeah chilled there then came back, I was gonna apply for my uni courses but then I have to consult with my mum how she wants to pay for the fee though its only $24 but yeah she likes to be conxulted with for stuff like that!

Anyway Im jump back on msn and chat away till my coffee is finished then set up dialysis, then might just hit the sheets. If not, I'll jump back on the net!

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MORNING

Well no church for me today. But I have one hell of a week ahead of me. I go my dance HSC this week. Excited? partially. Im excited to dance those dances for like the last time, but then Im nervous. I gotta study and yeah! Be prepared ESPEACIALLY for Viva's.

Its a nice day today =) What a shame Im gonna be spending it at home! I dont wanna stay home! Id rather go church. But what am I gonna do on a sunday! Unless I went to my sisters, but I dont know! I might just chill and watch movies! all day!

Ive been thinking.
But I dont think I wanna blog about it just yet.

I feel like chocolate man! =)

Last night I was tired pretty early. Like usually when I get tired at around 12 I still stay up on msn or some shit. But I was so tired and bored that I just wanted to go to sleep! So I did.

Second thoughts, it was my sister that told me to always trust your second thoughts =) LOL I miss her! Sometimes I dont know whether Im having second thoughts or just tripping, though Im not having any at the moment about anything! I wanna apply for my courses, and I think I shall today, seeing as I have nothing better to do.

You learn from things that happen in the past, thing is, its not always the same situation.

LOLOL I know Im being really random with my topics of discussion Im throwing at you!

I think I might go now brush my teeth take a shower and eat, and then let the movie watching commence =)

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BORED

Well Im so bloody bored its not funny! Ive been bored ever since I got home! I have a new song that i can not stop lisening to. Its called "Best I ever had" =) I DIG IT...actually its remix LOL never heard the original =)

You knoe how smetimes remixes can be REAL shit? but sometimes they can be AWESOME as. Well yeah anyway, Im sooooo booorrreeeedddd. I would ring Vita, but I dont wanna ring and his mums at work or something LOL...GOSH Im so FUCKIN BORED!!! None of the peeps I talk to on msn are online =S and theres pretty much nothing to do. I need to be entertained. Here I am...enetertaining myself! WOOHOO WOOPEEE...I dont even feel like waching TV. I just feel like sitting in my room I think I know what I wanna do. I might just lay on my bed and listen to "Best I ever had" Over and over again. Like how mad is that aye =)

No church for me tomorrow either, because its a combine!
Anyway
Ima chat to zakii and then jet off

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QUESTION

HMMM...I was wondering about stuff today. I cant really remember but I shall try to. I was wondering why famil get so cut over two people being together. YEAH thats it.

Like I was thinking about how my cousin just recently got married. My uncle wanted to kill her husband aye. Like I dont get what the BIG problem is. Like if they're inlove, then just let it be I reckon. I dont understand why family members care so much. Like another example when little sister go out with other guys...and their brothers want to beat up on their little sisters boyfriends. I really wonder why people react like that. Like its really natural I know that. But WHY? Is it jealousy. YEAH they know how guys are and shit, but its not their boyfriend, and plus, EVERYONE gets hurt in the love game. Its bound to happen! You cant stop it. ou cant stop a guy from cheating on his girl and you cnt stop a girl from cheating on her man. I mean I dont even know what it feels like to cheat! But I wonder what they get out of it. I mean guys might look big to the oys you know? and show off, koz they scored BOOTY! But I dont know....Actually I understand, but I wont go there. MY SECRET =)

Anyway I was suppose to speak about family and their interferance ( I have no clue how to spell that word) with other family members love lives. But I also understand like I wouldnt want my little brothers or sisters getting hurt. But its bound to happen! it just is....I dont think there is one person in the world that never been hurt by love, or even just likeing someone!

What made me think of it? Was my convo with Vita last night LMAO!

But anyway oh another issue I have on my mind.

Whats the difference between seeing someone and actually dating them. Your pretty much in the same circumstances. But I think there is a difference. But I just cant nail what it is. The feeling is different in a way. Koz your not really attached to that person, but then you are. Like I just cnt really get around to nailing the difference between seeiong someone and dating someone. I mean I dont know. Ive never actually seen the difference. But I sorta feel the difference. Seeing as Im seeing my ex now. There is sort of a difference. Or maybe its just the fact that times change. I dont know or maybe the situation now is totally different. Im fascinated by the feeling I feel. Sounds corny but no other way to word it at the moment!

Things from the past? Im trying to erase from memory. But sometimes I cant hlp but think about it. It makes it hard for me to trust you know?
ANYWAY

Apparently Moe and Floral had fun =)

Im happy!

I think I might do something, I have no idea what that is but I shall figure it out as soon as I stop blogging

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I sorry

I thought I wouldve been able to be cheered up by him...but instead? I partially took it out on him :( My dad has just really ticked me off aye. Im sick of it. In my life his suppose to be the "understanding" one. Yet his most closed minded when I need him most. It cuts man...

But anyway....I better go sleep, gotta clean up and do my washing!

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Another bump on the road

Well, I had a heated argument with my dad. I went for gold on my dad. I dont know. No one will leave me alone with what I wanna do next year. Like dont you all fuckin understand that I REALLY DONT FUCKIN KNOW WHAT I WANNA FUCKIN DO??? But since I have to make the choice now...I WILL..and I dont need yous to quide me. ESPEACIALLY THE MOTHER FUCKERS WHO DIDNT EVEN COMPLETE YEAR 12! Just shut the fuck up and continue on with your fucked up lives. (I dont really think your lives are fucked up). Everyones just like why do you always change your mind...Maybe koz I DONT FUCKIN KNOW WHAT I WANNA DO =(.

I know yous care and shit but yous arent helping AT ALL.

And my heated discussion with my dad? Was to do with dance. Like I FUCKING HATE closed minded people! His a PERFECT fucking example! I dont know. I dont give a shit. and I made it quite CLEAR to my dad that I will do as I please. Choose courses that I fucking wanna do. REGUARDLESS..of what ANYONE INCLUDING HIM! think. Its not there fucking lives. Just koz they fucked up theres doesnt mean they can pressure me into shit. I dont give a shit if they're not trying to pressure me, BECAUSE i feel pressured. They're not the ones at school. I dont fucking understand. I DONT Im so fuckin pissed. Why cant everyone just mind their own FUCKED UP business. SERIOUSLY! My mum gets people to talk to me. I DONT WANNA BE SPOKEN TO BY OTHER PEOPLE. IF I DONT LISTEN TO YOU? WHAT THE FUCK MAKES YOU THINK ILL LISTEN TO THEM???...Seriously I look at things this way. If my parents want me to do something and I refuse to?? Im not gonna let someone else talk me into it. Just doesnt work like that! If my parents cant talk me into it..THEN NEITHER CAN YOU!

I dont know, but Im feeding off the anger that everyones causing me. So I guess I can use theitr negative vibes to my advantage! But...I refuse to be manipulated!!! FUCKING REFUSE TO!

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TAKE TWO

I'm abit calm now. ==' ahhh....I need something, to take my mind off things! Or maybe not...maybe I should keep it all locked up inside?? Doesnt sound too healthy! Yeah....all I can think of about blogging. I just really wish, I dont know. I wish I could escape. Escape from everyone. I wanna get out. Get away from family. Just...I dont know....fly away...HAHAHA

dah dah dah dah....wonder how I went in music...=S

Im actually really tired. I wanna ring someone. But I hate ringing and Mother or whoever picks up. Therefore I never ring. Did it once...might do it again..but maybe another time!!!

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Life goes on

Well, I got up this morning =) and chatted to Moe whilst getting ready. I am so cursious as to how Floral and Moes date went...though Floral reckons its not a date...I think it is =)

Anyway I left the house caught the train and waited for the bus. I had to go in my gersey so I culd get on the train and bus for free, which was lucky kos a ticketer asked for my ticket. Anyway I bumped into Peter, and we chatted away until my bus came. I got to school and I felt weird with the gersey on so as soon as I got off the bus I took it off. I went down the alley to wait for Kathy and Milly. I was trying to ring Kathy right through 1800 mum dad. MAN she didnt even return my calls. LUCKY she called and told me to walk to her house!

So yeah walked to her house, and we were trying to get to Milly aye...Bro I so had a feeling she would be lazy =)

ANYWAY I TRIED to play sims LOLOL...we chatted and everything HAHA it was funny. I took luvoos...Koz yeah I LOVE kathys phone =) and yeah I left her house at like 3:30 went to Big Mammas and chilled out abit..BRO I think my dad saw me smoking =S

Anyway we just got home. Not really bothered for detail as you can see =)

So I am going to...I dont know..Maybe watch TV =)

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THANKS KATHY

She did up my page...ahhaha and now shes jeloo =)

Vitas got me....:)

HAPPY KID going to bed soon

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Just to blog

Well Im sitting in my kitchen chatting away to Kathy. Man can I just say, I miss the girls man, I miss being all together at school!

Anyway, I have a day off tomorrow. and we have no clue whats happening tomorrow. It was suppose to be a chill out day with the girls, and then it was gonna be a I meet up with someone, and now its a I HAVE NO CLUE!!!

Might even end up staying home. LOLOL!! How gay!

UMMM not much to blog about tonight...so yeah

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<3

POO...I hate this feeling....*rolls eyes* FUCK MAN! I dont like it....how do you get rid of it? when you dont want to? Dont really wanna fall in....but I might just let myself go...Like what can I lose right?? Whats the worst that can happen? Broken heart? Not like its nevr happened before. I guess theres more to come. I just dont want to be TS'd to you know? Giving me that feeling of "wishfull thinking"...its cruel dont you think? Unless your being genuine. I think you are, but I know your perceptions of things change quite quickly.

I dont know, I dont have second thoughts now, but it dont mean I wont get them. I just have to say...this is the last time...last chance....last anything! Either you win or lose right?? <<
I wonder ALOT!!! I wonder and wonder and wonder...like why now??? I guess I will never know...Anyway Im down for the ride...Guess just sit back and enjoy...might be a bumpy road aye....Im not good at holding on, hence why I always break it off with guys! I'll try this time! TRY!

Anyway Ima fricken go to Big mammas tomorrow Im hanging really badly for a smoke aye!!!

Anyway

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its got to be PERFECT (outing with floral)

Farr I have to say this has been the longest two weeks of my life!

LOLOL Instead of staying home or doing anything constructive with my time I went to meet up with Floral to have a tutorial with Mr Thwaites. and you know what? We didnt end up having it. We hung out in one of the blocks (Greenway) And we sat there chatting away! Then we got abit impatient and went out to the quad....we had no idea of what our intentions were. We bumped into Kathy on the way =) Wished her luck and off we went to the quad. We sat around in the sun chatting I dont know but sometimes Floral was in her own world aye...LMAO! but that always happens...So I just continue talking ;) LOL The sun was BEAUTIFUL man! I was loving it =) Though I dont really need a tan.

Then we sat for like 10 - 20 mins just chatting. We finally decided to leave..LMAO I didnt really wanna leave kos the sun was that nice =) Well we got out and laughed at each others dry jokes whilst waiting for the bus...then outa the blues Floral doesnt wanna go Fairfield, she wants to go Livoo...Now I didnt really mind, but only problem was, I had no money, she was shouting, FUCK I owe that girl HEAPS man! LMAO! Anyway! We walked to Canley Vale, forgetting how much of a long walk it was!! We had to wait for 28 mins when we got to Canley Vale Station. We waited and there was this guy across the platform who kept starin at us...It was so funny when we started talking about how he was staring, koz it was just a TAD obvious koz we would laugh and giggle and so forth. Anyway we sat in the shade this time whilst waiting for the train...sorta got sick of the sun aye! LOL!

We got on the train and LMAO I was full chatting away to Floral right? and I sorta noticed her looking beyond me, but I just ignored it as usual and kept talking ten when we got to the next stop she was like "The guy behind you was fully staring and smiling at me, and then wen he was leaving he started waving at me as he was leaving" Yeah she was creeped out LMAO! Anyway we got to Liverpool and the fun began =)

We were walking quite a walk koz we were all the way down at the end, and the train hadn't left yet, OML as we were walking I spotted this guy with glasses that looked REAK handicap full starin at us as we walk by. And the FUNNIEST was this african dude, FULLY smiling!! I was like "OMGOSH FLoral look down floral look down" And she was like "No" and we just cracked up lauging it was so fucking funny. Anyway we went and Floral shouted me makkas, poor thing didnt have any koz shes tryna eat healthy! Farr how many time have I tried that! I shall try again ONE DAY! till that day? I shall go for gold on the junk:D Anyway We just sat there thinking about what to do afterwards koz we didnt have money. One thing was clear! We were gonna go window shopping =) Anyway we were trying to think of ways to make it interesting...we checked out EVERYONE! I mean the guys LOL! And we judged like bitches..actually we started checking out everyone at Canley Vale station LOLOL! Anyway we finished eating right? So we started our window shopping.

FLoral decided that we should go into a store, both pick outfits, and swap! So we told each others sizes..Ima medium size 12 - 14 and shes a small size 12. LOLOL We went to about three stores and did it. It was so much fun koz she picked out stuff that I would never have picked...But when I tried it on I liked it! LMAO!! and same thing as her! Anyway Yeah my favouite of our outfits was the last shop we went to, she got me an orange dress with a black leather jacket or grey...and I got her this flowy off the shoulder top with a black skirt...IT WAS SICK! ;) We both liked each others picks HAHA

Anyway we decided to leave and we went to the station koz see we only bought one way tickets...we got to the station to find out Floral didnt have enough to pay for tickets to go back. So we had to bluff our way to Warrick Farm...The walk was actually really easy, even though it was the BIGGEST bluff, we were SO happy to see the park and then yeah we swung on the swings for abit! Far man I couldnt even fit on the baby swing! FARRR then we waited for out train. Floral got off at Cabra and I got off at Yennora.

Man my legs up till now HURT!

Amyway I have to go koz I want to! Farr havent blogged that much in a long time

But I really had fun with Floral today LMAO!! Oh and we took photos in the arcade..Im LOVING the piks =)

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Slowly getting there

I have done a little thinking, and I think Im going abit over the top! If I think about it, Im still a kid. But anyway enough about love stories

I was having a convo with my dad, and yeah his not fresh so its not funny or anything LOLOL He was telling me that on the news it was saying that majority of Aussie teens are PSYCHO! and that studies showed that majority of teen-agers in Australia are drop-outs and partiers. I mean I dont really think you could blame the teens, I mean you could but, I reckon majority of the blame should go towards parent, I mean unless the parents are migrants and dont really understand english, then parents are to blame. Its due to careless parents who let their kids do whatever! Not enough discipline! Well thats my opinion.

Im really tired just wanna relax! Im slowly getting over him for some reason, maybe its the fact we havent spoken in a couple of days LOL I dont know!...But like I always say Im a naive teen who has unstabled feelings. LOL!

Wish that the saying "Once a player always a player" wasnt true! SOMEONE PROVE THAT SAYING WRONG PLEASE!!!!

Im gonna be bored on facebook and continue to feel hungry due to being too lazy to get up and make myself something to eat!

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Vitawheet

Well, I have to get this out of my system

But I really dont know how everythins gonna turn out! I dont know, I feel like we're jus going around in circles, it almost feels the same! I dont know maybe Im just tripping! But THAT JUST IT! Im ALWAYS tripping! Because you change the direction your going ALL THE TIME! I cant keep up, you pretty much just leave me behind and move forward with out me, the you come back thinking its PERFECTLY fine to continue where we left off. I dont gt an appology of any sort!Just a "Forget about it its over" Like easy for you to say, But I was the one who was left behind, left for someone else. I dont like being second to other bitches and that is how I see it. Other girls come before me, and no its not cool. But why do I accept you back?? I dont know. I seriously think I just love you! I wuld NEVER tell you this aye. Who knows how youd react. Either "Im sorry" OR something like Some fucked up excuse. I dont know I really dont!

I try, I really do. But I dont know how to make it work, or if Im just working on my own! I cant be your friend BOTTOM LINE! Its either more?? Or we dont talk! Back to the way it was before we EVER started talking! I dont know why you talk so much shit either. Did your mum even hate me?? Koz YU SAID IT! I dont know man. There are just things to you that out me off, but its YOU..and its YOU who I love. WOW.

I think if I had a choice to turn back, I probably would never have added you on bebo that day that i did!!!...(I dont really mean that!) My intuition tells me all sorts of stuff, It tells me you love me, but then I dont know I have a feeling another girls just gonna pop up and OFF and AWAY you are, then you come back! Then FUCK OFF again =) I dont know if thats how its worked from your side of the fence, but thats what its been like on my side of the fence! =='

I think I should just NOT trip and do something...like study for business studies!

Sorry if yous get abit bored aye, But I needed to shake this shit off aye! Anyway

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WOW

OML I full spoke to her...LMAO Im happy kid now =) But ummm Im shaking rigt now!!! LMFAO!! I cant believe it I asked her if it was her and she was like NO! So Im like WTH? Or did I say her name wrong?? BAHAHAHAHAHA

Anyway btw that was my FIRST time in all my years to EVER talk to her! WOAH Im like full pumped aye! HAHAHA she made my day =) Just by speaking to me...shes probably tinking "Little bitch, leave my son alone" HAHAHAHA GAHH so happy =) HAHAHAHA

WEIRD!...I mean the things that can make you appy in an instance and the things that could piss you off as well. I think she was talking shit aye....does she really work in Bankstown??? Oh well I dont care. =) SMILING ANYWAY!....farrr I feel like a loser...But Im a HAPPY loser!!! HAHAHAHA

anyway I got abit of cleaning to do then will do some studying for business, then hit the sheets koz ummm Im going my cousins house tomorrow! CHOOHOO I hate business with FUCKING PASSION! toodles!!!!

Sick to my stomach...LITERALLY

Okaii, I realise alot of suff AFTER they happen, and it SUCKS! anyway I wont go into detail.

My mind is EVERYWHERE! It's suppose to be hot but its cold as in my house!

I feel sick, I sit around for ages trying to figure out what happen, I guess past sould be left in the past, but I cant. anyway, I dont know if Im just a cold hearted bitch, but I dont have patience or the heart for sensitivity! I really dont. But I try to, I REALLY do. But I just cant! Is it because Im cold hearted? What is it?? Yeah your probably thinking "koz your a BITCH"...well you got that DAMN STRAIGHT. nah not really, I dont think Im a bitch...ahhh PFFTTT I dont know....dont care either.

Anyway I gotta stay focused on school therefore I shall jump off and go do something, like make my dads breakfast then iron clothes and jet off to chuch, when I come back I'll do work =)

Enjoy the remainder of your day.

I have a feeling Moes mad at me now....I'm really sorry buddy. I REALLY AM!!!!

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I dont know whats gotten into me lately.

My moods are still swinging, but, sometimes I think....actually I dont know.

My actions are even weird to me....

ANYWAY.

My mum doesnt get back till another two weeks, and man I think I might wait for my brother to get home...or maybe not! I think I might chuck an early night tonight not sure, oh and I finally cleaned my room tonight YIIIAAAAHHHHH.

I'm really just bored, and should do some study notes or something, which I shall do. LOLOL

getting abit tired, from cleaning and watching TV....koz you know how watching TV takes up alot of energy....

Im SO BORED! Ive been bored all day!!!!! I mean cleaning wasnt boring, but when I wasnt cleaning?? I WAS LIKE, "What am I gonna do now?" I pretty much just watched TV or cleaned today, and jumped on the net a couple of times! Bloody BORING!!!! I gots church tomorrow =) WOOHOO

Anyway, Im gonna browse abit then study or something! Kill time, then go to bed :) In a fixed bed LMFAO!! for the past million years Ive been sharing my bed with all my clothes books bags etc LMAO.

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I knew it all along BABY =)

Well,

I have been waiting for forever! Finally happening? or is it????

I dont know, I cant tell him I miss him, Im glad he didnt ask if I did. Well the answer wouldve been yes anyway but I dont know.

LMAO! I dont know...its all I can say!

They say...dont worry.

Its just puppy love....or is it?

MMMM...this is why I have been avoiding the blog koz its all gonna be about HIM!

Okaii lets talk about something else.

I have a regret on my mind. I think Ive sort of been takin my anger out on FLORAL...and I must appologise aye, fuck man, floral to ME..is like FAMILY! But Ive just been dumping shit on her, when the actual person I should be dumpin it on doesnt even kno Im ANNOYED!
Dont get me wrong, they're both close to me, but, I miss "Normal" conversation but its all "Floral" convo....I mean MAJORITY! I dont mind I realy DONT! But yeah I try not to make it obvious that Im bugged. In a result Ive been dumpin it on Floral...I dont know, I have to be honest Im protective of Floral...Partially why I get BUGGED! FARRR...But honestly....

ANYWAY

hahaha! I cleaned up the WHOLE house today, my rooms left though! I shall clean after this!

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WOW

I cant even remember wether I blogged yesterday or not! I dont know, school has had major impacting! Ive learnt my lesson as well from not studyin! I SUCKED AYE!

Anyway I dont feel like blogging no more...toodle loo

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end of the road

maybe it might be right now. I dont know, why is he ringing now? I dont know!
But =) I miss him now, cant get him out of my mind, fricken distraction. I think his becoming abit serious with me. I dont know...Now Im fricken HIGH...ARGGGHHH GO HOME! gotta stay focused ENGLISH!

Oh and you know when they say that when you date an ex its not the same, bro were not dating, but it felt no different from when we were dating, except I felt weird saying his name LMAO!! Dont worry hahahahaha

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Hate how much I love you

Now I have studying to do, therefore this will be short and sweet!



Dance prac today! I still got alot to work on.



I cheked out English paper, and FAR OUT! I have alot to do...Might be a late night tonight! I deserve it for not studying! Im more confident with dance then I am with....

Gotta go

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STRESS has arrived

Im not going to make sense at all...but Im fuckin tired, tired of EVERYTHING! Im tired of...NOTHING =( Just tired...maybe emotional, abit grumpy LOLOL WOW I feel abit better already.

Any way I dont know, Im just SO angry and bitchy feeling. Like Im still uncertain as to what Im gonna do, my dad wants me to do B Commerce so I can be an accountant...I guess they do get good pay! I wanted to do the nursing course...but money sounds more appealing to me at the moment!

I dont know...back to being personal....I hate it when he pisses me off....He does stuff that just PISSES me off...I dont know....Im trying to stay calm about it, but Im sick of TRYING to be NICE to him, and NOT show that Im actually pissed at him. Ima show it....you COULD say IM SICK of his...I dont know...I just get annoyed how he goes...then comes back saying I miss you and stuff...well he hasnt yet, but he doesnt need to say it for me to know! FAR OUT....But that guy, man how long is this gonna last, Its been an awfully long time with him coming...GOING, coming back....thing is....I dont know lets not speak of it HAHAHA...joz ive finished saying what i had to say :)

ANYWAY studying is on my mind right now...Its like calling me "MAKE ENGLISH NOTES" I shall after I do stuff for my dad.

Im sooo....I dont know

results from hormones >:( FUCKIN

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Depression (All about school; educational wise)

=( IHAVE FINALLY WOKEN UP...BIG SLAP IN THE FACE...ABOUT TIME...But Im partially too late...english has already passed and I FUCKIN FAILED...do you understand how fuckin DISSAPOINTING that is! LIKE WTF WAS I THINKING! FUCK ME DEAD...no one else to blame but myself! FUCKIN HELL you dont understand how BAD I did in that exam! Like I was SO LOST I couldnt even talk shit! Im so ANGRY at myself! ...Sev=rves me right I guess, for not waking up EARLIER...FUCKIN IDIOT! ARRRGGGHHHHH

I cant help but think about it right now, thats all thas on my mind. I decided to check my UAC guide just browsing You know?? And I realised, Im abit scared of policing, I REALLY have NO FUCKIN clue as to what Im gonna do next year...though Policing is still one of my options. Though I know I can really get far with Music, I dont wanna do it, I wanna do something else! I think I wanna become nurse now, like FAR OUT how many times am I gonna change my mind! I think I really want it though! Im not gonna discuss it with my parents Im just gna go do it! But I dont know koz like some of it requires maths or some shit like SUCK MY IMAGENARY FAT ONE, I dropped maths! Fucking, but Im pretty experienced, I mean for a kid! I havent doneEVERYTHING but Ive done alot! I could ace it with dialysis LOLOL But I really think I wanna be a nurse! Apparently theres a lot of competition...PFFFTTTT...I dont know...Ima go talk to whats her name tomorrow, koz I wanna see if I could still get in with out maths science and all those BULLSHIT subjects!x

Farrr At least its FINALLY hit me....But I wish school hit me up earlier aye!! FARRR!! MY FAULT! But I'll just blame it on....the BOOGIE!

Last night was creepy aye, I woke up from a nightmare and blah blah...gonna sound psycho if I continue the story! Anyway! My arm hurts from typing! LOLOL

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If I were a boy

Well my cousin and I right, had this funny conversation today! I dont know how we got onto the topic but yeah. We were thinking what if guys and girls swapped! I mean guys would keep their dicks and girls keep vaginas. And yeah we figured that if we were to be male, our sperm would be in our overies and eggs would be in guys' ball sacks....now we foung that real FUNNY. Oh and just imagine, guys dicks expanding when giving birth, either that, or, the baby would come out of their balls! Yeah things we talk about HILRIOUS

Anyway I went on to telling my cousin something I think I shouldn't have! It doesnt concern me but I think my other cousin wasnt too pleased! I mean I had to tell someone! I couldve just kept it to my self but I dont know! I hate the fact that I was the only one who knew, and I wish I never knew that they were going before they actually took off. I could get in deep shit if every one finds out I knew! Like FARR OUTT!!

ANyway! I have major studying to do! Doing my english exam was a big wake up call, it made me realise that I dont really wanna fail miserably! If I fail, Id rather fail, knowing tat I did study and try my hardest! Although I dought I would fail if I studied and tried my hardest! Anyway!

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dont get it

now why the fuck does it matter to you? besides tha fact that Im your cousin, but WHY THE FUCK do you think it wont work out. LIKE HELLO! Im WAAYYYY younger and dont really look that far into the future. I dont know why you irritate me so much!!! BUT YOU DO when you talk about my mates? I dont really wanna talk about em...but I do anyway koz your my cousin and you'll bash me! SOOO yeah! But seriously just be supportive OKAII?

Anyway I have to study! and moes being a dustraction and Im so FUCKIN hungry hormones are playing up like NO TOMORROW!! I wish there was a better expression then that!

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Personal

Just realised that most of the shit I write on here is personal! How do I not write something personal! ANYWAY! lets try not to be so personal today shall we?

HMMM...what to talk about!

Umm I watched Meet Dave last night! MAN!!! I couldnt control my laughter man, suprised my dad didnt just whack me in the head for being so loud! Like I was laughing uncontrolably while my dad was just like giggling almost! LOLOL! Anyway and OML I cleaned up last night YIIIAAAHHH!! About time! But my room is still atrocious.....like how the hell do you spell that word??

Anyway we have church today, YAY! and Oh! I looked up past papers for english! and OMGOSH! Im not ready! I mean hopefully I can do alright with the creative writing! But the poetry and stuff Feliks skryznfsiki LMFAO!! (i tried to spell his name)

I went fruit shop up in Villa wood, HOTTIES much! That work there. Yeah well my hormones were real bad sooo I wasnt in the mood! But like one of them was FULL checkin me..damn was he hot! But man I was like angus as aye! Anyway!

Oh and I hate when I get angry and shit, it like wastes your time! I was the grumpiest bitch yesterday! I even started crying...OVER NOTHING! My dad was just iritating me! And we';re in the car....and I swear I was giving him attitude to the max, man I was just waiting for him to smack me across the head!

Anyway! I have to do last minute studying! And continue studies! Maybe I should clean my room first I mean when I get back from church! Then I can do y studies in my room, koz for some stupid reason when I study in the lounge no on leaves me alone, they all have to talk to me!

WOW! I did a GREAT job at refraiming from speaking about personal stuff dont you think? =P

Ima browse the net just abit then get ready for church!

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Family

Now see I dont get it, my cousin stole HALF my fuckin under wear! I know like WTF!!! Im not happy koz, I need more now!!! and my dad?? WILL NOT buy or give me money to get some! So I have to fucking wait till her highness idiot head (my mum) comes back!

You know, when my mum goes over seas, something always happens! I never realised how true it was! Because every time she goes over seas I always get into trouble somehow. and ever since shes gone my motivations GONE! I need to get some though! I shall be self-motivated! but yeah....I told my mum not to go during this year!!! and what does she do? SHE GOES!!!! Like what if something happens to my dad?? Im going to be fucked!!! FUCKED IN THE HEAD!!!! :)

Im not happy right now, I wish my mum didnt fuckin go! Theres no point of goin either! she dont need no fuckin holiday koz she doesnt even FUCKIN work! ARRRGGGGHHHHH!! Im going to stop koz I dont wanna get angus

anyway! Im going fairfield today! I dont know if I feel like it! I think I should stay home and clean up and TRY to study! English:)

Anyway! I cant believ I didnt write in here last night, like I came amillion times to blog! BUT! everytime I would exit the window and do something else

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Its a girls thing

Aye well sometimes I think my dads abit psycho! LMFAO!! He just finish telling me how bored my cousin is up in cairns! and he told me about her process of losing her virginity!!! =O Like OMFCKING GOSH!!!! I swear I tld my dad already! That if thats the case...Im NEVER EVER!! going to marry a tongan, as this only applies if TWO tongans get married!! if one is not tongan this DISGUSTING STUPID FUCKED UP custom doesnt apply! the custom is!

That when you get married to a guy, espeacially if he is of higher rank in society! My cousin is a great example. She just got married to the Kings 2nd cousin! And I mean the king of Tonga lolol! which means that she had to prove that she was still a virgin! AND GUESS HOW THEY DID THAT??? Her husbands aunty sat there and watched them do it! LIKE WTF!! I was chucking a psycho when I heard! My dad thought my reaction was HILARIOUS!! and I told my dad straight!! If I EVER get married to a Tongan! I dont give a shit if he was the king himself! I will LITERALLY bash the SHIT out of any bitch who tried to watch! LIKE WTF!! OMGOSH!! I dont really wanna get married to a tongan anyway! LMAO!! But I have heaps of time to think about that shit later ;) Right now??? SCHOOL =)

I still cant get over it! BRO!! FUCK THAT!! I was just "Thats fricken disgusting" and my dad was like, well thats the tongan custom! I was like thinkin THIS IS FUCKIN AUSTRALIA MATE!!! shiiiittttt man! Thats just GROSE! and....OMGOSH! TOTALLY GROSE!!! YUKKYYY!! who the fuck would come up with such a custom??? I know thre are other cultures with weird customs, but I NEVER thought TONGA! would be one of those cultures!! FARRRR was I WRONG or what????

Thats just humiliating! REALLY !! just FUCKIN OFF!!
I REFUSE TO EVER GO THROUGH THAT!! I REFUSE TO!!

I swear, my dad was like well if you refuse to that will only arouse suspicion....Im just like thinking Id rather be thought of as a slut then to sleep with someone INFRONT of someone! LMFAO!! LIKE WTF!! WHAT SORT OF SHIT IS THAT!! I SERIOUSLY HATE THAT CUSTOM WITH A FUCKIN PASSION!! If I was king I would burn that custom! Write on a piece of paper and BURN IT!! HAHAH

anyway! I gotta go!

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What I can blog about in 12 minutes

Well, Im bored, and have nothing to do for the next 12 minutes! So I have decided to see what I can blogabout, which would pretty much just be shit that come to my head!!
LMAO in music we learnt about the different parts of a violin LMFAO!!! theres a part called the "F" hole. HHAHAHAHHAA

I wouldnt be suprised.....

anyway! I tried multiple choice online HAHAHA, I need to do alot of studying man! Like TOO THE MAX!!!

Anyway!

nothing to say! This is a total waste of time! I have nothing to say at all!

Well, lets see, something IS on my mind, but its a bit personal!and yeah....lets just leave it at that!

Farrr I feel like Im typing against my will, and Im finding it really boring and taking a lot of effort!! I realy dont feel like writing this. HAHAHA

Why am I still writing? Koz I still wanna know what? and How much I can write and talk about within the 12 minutes.

Listening to Michael Jackson LOLOL

I gotta call off big momma

YEAH!! story of my life!

I wonder whats wrong???
BAHAHAHA I look over to my dad and he had this really funny expression on his face, as if he were thinking of something really stupid!! LMAO!!

I have 5 minutes to continue writing! GOSH!! This is the longest 12 minutes of my life.(not really)

DAYYYUUUUMMMM

I seriously need some form of motivation! Because all motivation is lost right now! I mean I dont know where its all gone! Im not worried! I mean Im forcefully trying not to worry! Maybe I should just let it out! And go for gold! Im scared of stressing, I guess you could say! IT JUST SUX!!! and it would suck for my dad! I dont know why, but when I get pissed off I sort of take it out on my dad! poor thing! Bro I think he feels lonely aye, koz when I got back from school!
He full sat next to me and started talkin to me. I can tell when he wants to talk! Koz he went outside and he was like "ITS WARM OUT HERE NI'I...NI'I???" LOLOL so I sat outside with him.

anyway I have a minute left YAYYYY!!!
HURRRYYY UPPPP!!!

hahahahahha
the things I do in order to avoid studying!! =(

TIMES UP

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Lifes can be complicated

Hello =)



Im so glad I didnt go english, and sit through boring speeches (no offence) But listening to the same thing over and over again is really boring!!



now? Im at home! LoL!! My dad was like "what happen to you? why you home so early?" I was like "I have a free period" ;) HEHEHE I did if you think about it. Just sit there doing nothing, or listening to speeches! POO!!



Anyway today? My hormones were playing up abit! LOLOL!!! GOSH!!! Im so happy horones dont stop you from laughing!!



Anyway! Im youtubing our jamming session from school that thwaites recorded! If you wanna check it out just go youtube and type in waka (cover) and scroll down! You'll see ME =) and then click and WATCH ;) I shall do that RIGHT NOW!! Im friken caped so i full have to wait for it to load!



LOLOL Im sitting outside in the sun with my dad! My house is so cold aye! It gets really cold!

FARRR OUT!!

anyway! Something bugged me today

Like the way she spoke about speacial eds just REALLY BADLY bugged me. Why would you speak about Speacial ed people in a form of GOSSIP!! LIKE WTF!! I know they can be real whak sometimes! but they're FUCKIN speacial ed!! What do you fricken expect!!!!
And the way you speak of younger grades just piss me off as well, Like I dont get it. You were once in year 9 and 10 too you know! You might've been a serious dude! But not everyone is a boring serious dude like YOU! I hate closed-minded people! OF COURSE year 9 is not gonna do their work most of the time...WHY?? Koz they're at the age of "I DONT GIVE A SHIT"Like yeah maybe our generation wasnt as bad!!! But compared to generations before us, WE ARE!!! So just try to fuckin understand! The worlds FUCKED! enjoy it ;)

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Harmony, only exists in music!

Farrr my hormones are really fucking up my moods big time! So if I act like I got something up my ass? Its koz of my hormones OKAY =) Just smile and ignore =)

When my hormones play up, I get angry I try to hide it, but it doesnt work, and people notice it and ask if somethings up....that pisses me off even more! Dont stare at me like somethings wrong!!!! It ticks me off!! But I know yous just care LOLOL!! Its alright! Im really good at trying not to take it out on people! When Im with people, I wanna be alone, like seriously I just getall handicap! The smallest thing on my mind will PISS ME OFF! EXAMPLE! The fact that my dads being a tight ass, hence no lunch for me!!! Nothing in the fridge, nothing in the cupboard either, sooo pretty much just scab off my girls! GOSH! Fuckin hate it when my mums over seas! And I dont wanna say anything koz I know my dad will say something like "oh well you shouldve thought of that before" or some smart ass comment that my hormones will fire up over!!!

Yeah story of my life!

GOSH! I almost feel like crying! I feel so FUCKED!!! FARRR can i not just pour my heart out on here!! why do I feel like crying??? Koz Im a fuckin big sook! THATS ALL HAHAHA....LMAO!

Anyway! Im waiting for thwaites to post up the vids from today so I can watch them!

My dad and my brother piss me off, they;re he most unsopportive bunhc of fuckheads EVER!! sorry for swearing about my dad aye...BUT yeah Im not gonna hide it from my OWN blog!!!

Its how I feel, or maybe how my hormones feel! Why do hormones play with your mood! Like seriously! Im probably the most angus kid out!! well, right now...hahaha nah! Theres bound to be some litle pissy bitch thats wrst! HAHA

anyway! School??? Well I wouldve been late as if it wasnt for ummmm Nazli! LMAO! I missed the late bus
like how handicap can you get!

Anyway I miss my cousin! I wish she was here:( She was like another mother to me!! and I MISS HER OH SO MUCH!

MY dad asked me if I knew they had already been married?? and Of course I lied! I said I didnt know! I didnt wanna tell them I knew from the start :S I didnt wanna tell them!

But yeah..I dont know!

ARGGGGHHHHH LMAO!!

The truth is out...but I this time I twisted the story!

Im abit confused! studying are we?? I need to do that! Anyway! I should get cracking koz Ive had an unstable start to the term! Settling down is the hardest! I said I was gonna go for gold tonight! But I havent even started and its like 7:25!

I never wanna watch my major performance ever again! I think miss would chuck a pshycho if I watched it in class...koz I will laugh my head off!!!

Anyway! Better fuck off now and get it on with studying

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TAKE TWO

Still havent done shit

Ive jumped back on here to complain! (The thing Im best at)

My brother pisses me off, he thinks he knows it all, WARNING Ima be the most negative bitch today and point out what I hate about my family members, starting with my brother, will probably end with my brother as well.

Lets see, he pisses me off like a mother fucker, he thinks he knows it all like seriously! He thinks his SO smart! Fuckin dumbass didnt even finish school! He burns me man! You dont understand the smallest thing he says pisses me off....WHY? Koz his the BIGGEST dumbasss....the BIGGEST hypocritical ass hole! But yeah I love my bro, but he can REALLY get n my nerves!!!

My dad?? Is almost the same! He thinks his different from my brother, but his not! He too also thinks he knows it all! Just beause his been on earth for over 70 years! BTW! His not really my dd NOT FUCKED EXPLAINING so dont bother asking OKAI!!

ANYWAY! He likes to make false assumptions and accusations! Like seriously this is how I feel about it....."SHOVE IT UP YOUR FUCKING ASS OKAY!"

and also! Lets see, my mum. Its funny how shes around I wish she would FUCK OFF and when shes not around I want her to come back! I dot like communicating with my mum WHY? fucked if I know! its just how it is! But I dont know! With my mum around I get what I want! Yeah sounds like I just wanna use my mum aye! Probly true! I dont know!

oh and I just found out that my dad got a warning from the doctor about his heart! his heart is almost FULLY gone....not fucked explaining ONCE AGAIN! So dont ask!!!
I'm pretty much youtubing the performances from showcase!

My Major dance performance was EPIC!!!!

Not in the mood!!!! ARRGGGGHHHH
=)

Smile....

Maybe I should eat! Im just not eating yet koz I dont wanna be spoken to by my dad! I wish my dad would go to his room! So I could have the whole lounge to myself! And also yeah...just so I could have the lounge to myself! I havent been bothered to clean my room! LOLOL!! it is now in no condition for studying!

Right now my heart is at rest =) with Vita, but my eyes and mind aren't! They explore too much! I try to stop! I really do! But I cant help myself! This dude has to be so DAMN interesting and drawing! Like something about him just captivates me...btw I dont know what captivate means!!! I just assume it means what I feel!

My dad, I feel sorry for! But his sooo...He makes me feel numb to feeling any form of concern! Well at least for now!!! Emotions, is something I tend to hide! ALOT! I mean when it comes to certain things!!! I have to admit I can be really missleading!!! But at the same time...I dont know wha Im on about! I just felt ike typing what was on my mind!

Its funny how you think of yourself as something, but your not? I dont know!! What would you call that?? Miss-conceptionIs that even a word??? LOLOL!! I dont know where I get these random words! LOLOL!
E.g Toodle loo!

LOLOL! nah i got that off nat! But I turned it into hello, and pretty much a meaningless word, just like abo!!!

anyway!

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Beautiful DISASTER!!!

Well I fucked up bad tonight!! LMFAO!! I have never been so fricken lost in my life man! Espeacially whilst dancing!!! Core performance I was FINE! But MAJOR?? I sucked! And my dancer was mad as anything!! SO THANKS TO HER =D

I swear! I gotta force myself to dig dance man! Like I love dancing okaii! BUT! Contempory??? Is NOT me! I like HIPHOP i know it sounds sooo....cliche! EVERYONE loves HipHop! BUT like! I dont know! I cant dig contempory and CAN NOT be good at something I dont really like! ANYWAY! LMAO!! Im glad I gave the audience AND ESPEACIALLY my cousin...something to laugh at! She was the worst man! She made me laugh when I shouldnt have been! LOLOL

Anyway! OVERALL! It was good! I dont know I just wasnt feelin it tonight! GEES!! I gotta think positive!!! But HOW??? Just pretend Im ALL THAT aye ;) Thats the way to go!

Oh and

MR. Did you say something?....I dont know look like you said something when you looked! GOSH! I think you hate me aye! =D Or maybe thats just how you are! How should I know yeah?? I can take a hint!!!!

LOLOL!! Love talking to myself! ANYWAY! Fuckin gotta do work! and study! MAN!! I havent done jack shit SOO now I dont know where to start!! =S FUCK ME MAN!

Anyway! I think I should get off this and start eating and then do SOMETHING!!!

always...ALL DAY!! Get out? WHEN! eyes! Mind games, hinting what???

NOTHING

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Marriage & Music

Well, first of all my cousin? Shes gone =( Her and her husband have take off! AND!! I was the only one that knew they were going =( And my family is going abit phsycho!! But no ones asking me questions! Im glad they didnt ask me wether I knew anything about it! I think they know not to ask me anyway! Because I wouldnt tell a soul! I mean, I just did post it on the net but they dont read my blog PLUS! They dont got the net! ANYWAY!

onto a more pleasant subject!

Tonight! was AWESOME!!

It was mad! I enjoyed the performances and also enjoyed performing! It was awesome and cant thank all the people that came to watch enough!!!

SO YEAH thanks again =) Even if yous werent there to watch me...yous ended up watching ME anyway:P HAHAHA I kid I kid!!

Im gonna miss my music class hard aye!!

Yeah and my fams was HEAPS impressed with thanh julian and philip LOL!!! Yeah koz my fams love guitar blah blah!

Anyway! Im fricken tired!!!

Gotta do shit too

SOO

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poo

Im starting to like lose motivation to Blog! why am I still blogging though? I have nor fricken clue aye! Its still like an obsession where I like MUST HAHAHA abos these days!

Anyway! I still havent cleaned up jack shit! I didnt even do my washing! But its in the wash right now, I cleaned the bathroom sink koz it was getting abit ugly! I just nee ta vacume and shit! Mop the bathroom and kitchen! FARR OUT!!

Anyway! I need to learn that Rio song...well at least the first verse! And I need to try and remember the chords to Omilias song! And SHIT! I just remembered I have to memorise that song ummm sign sealed delivered LMAO!! I dont know the second verse! I mean I do but for some reason I ALWAYS forget the words!!!

Anyway!
We have church today! YAYAY!! and OML!!! My dad wont buy fucking conditioner!! Like its only 2 fuckin dollars!! I think Im gonna chuck pshycho!!! Koz we only have stupid shampoo!! YOU CANT HAVE SHAMPOO WITH OU CONDITIONER!!! Gosh I sound like the poshy peeps! Do I give a shit? NO!!!!

WOW!! I think my mum does spoil me!!! BUT its FUCKIN CONDITIONER!!! EVERYONE FUCKIN USES IT!!! GOSH!!

well anyway! Ima eat then iron my dads clothes. Oh and my cousin? shes taking off with her man! FARRR I have to deny that I knew anything about it! Koz I'll get in shit! I hate lying!! I wish I didnt know!! I told her not to even tell me where shes going!!! BUT!!! what did she do??? She fricken told me!! Now I know where their going! YAY!! Now when I ge questioned Im gonna know where they are but say "I dont know where she went" They're gonna make me feel guilty blah fuckin blah! FUCK ME! MAN!! The shit I do for my cousin! One day! She will do something for me...clean up my house vcume my floor or some shit i dont care...just SOMETHING!!!

Farrr Im scared honestly!!!

But yeah! I think she should go! They've already tried to do things the "right way" (according to Tongan customs) but NOOOO!!! Everyone just turns aroun and think its their lives when its my cousins! BLOODY IDIOTS! I feel sorry for her and her man! But yeah! It makes me wonder!!! Every time I see couples like that! It makes me wonder!

But anyway! I cant wait till HSC is OVER!!! sort of...Im actually nervous AND excited!! All at the same time =) WOW!! I didnt think Id blog this much! I thought it would be short as!! Been a while!! ANyway I shall get crackin!!

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