Yeah

HMMM....Im such a mess! Yes indeed. Anyway Im really tired too

Im g0ing t0 jet 0ff s00n!

Cant wait f0r t0m0rrw m0rning. WHY? s0 I can c0ntinue reading new m00n! But like, I w0uld read it n0w, but friken im tired! Th0ugh Im dying t0 read it, i can wait! Funny h0w im quite the impatient type. Th0ugh Im paient en0ugh t0 wait t0 read a b00k I cant wait t0 read!

Guess its k0z im tired. N0w im just babbling!

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S0, whatever happen t0, its 0ver, and never speak t0 each 0ther again? I think Id rather that than t0 be "friends". BUT Im actually willing t0 give it a try, s0 l0ng as there are n0 attachments and shit. If sp0t even JUST 0NE! Ima flip it HARD 0UT!

Anyway, This week is FINALLY 0ver!!! N0w time f0r the week that I have been waiting f0r. I g0tta cut my l0ng fake nails t0day, S0 that I may practice f0r this c0ming Friday, which is my auditi0n! I spyched! I shall practice and practice and practice every day! PLUS I g0t my interview, which reminds me. I need t0 ph0t0 c0py all my shit! F0r the interview!

Anyway Im s0 psyched! Its a much nicer day t0day, still h0t th0ugh, but its alright! SHIT I d0nt kn0w where my ph0ne is

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FUCK

What a shit day! It was good. But just my mood was shit. im in such a shit mood. like can someone shoot me!

Nothing interesting, except that I learnt that douche bag dont really mean idiot! I cant type as fast because of my nails. and plus, they hurt. My bros pissed at me, for giving him such short notice that Im still going to use his room for the girls to come stay over tomorrow night

Sum up of my day

*Tired
*Needed a lighter
*Learnt what a douche bag is
*signed out
*pissed off my mum and my cousin
*scored the next twilight book
*Got nails and pedicure
*Went makkaz
*Went kuzins learnt tongan dance
*mum came down
*came home
*pissed off my brother
*shit mood
*going bed soon

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Begin

Where do I start. I actually have quite abit on my mind! The main thing I can not wait for, is to start earning money. I usually say I cant wait to start work. Apparently I shouldnt say that! LOL. Well, yeah, that is pretty much all I can think of at the moment! The money is getting to me! Well more like the materialistic things I can do with the money. Espeacially like buy gifts for family and shit. Yeah! And go shopping for clothes =D HAHA! But anyway, today my two little boy cousins got up to celebrate their birthday really early, like their birthday aint until Thursday! LOL. It was there that I realised that I look at those wo little boys like my own little brothers! I dont know, I just felt like I was looking at MY brothers...I mean not like my actual brothers like do you get what I mean? No? Not making sense? Well, thats not unusual actualy.

Anyway, change of subject! I cant wait to get the ipod like honest! I want christmas to hurry up and get here!

My dad gave me a hundred bucks. But its all for school shit! With that money I have to pay for my year book, and get my manicure/pedicure with the girls on tuesday.

This week is surely goingto be a busy week. Its the last time Im gonna feel busy for a while now. Because after that, I'll have nothing, but work and church an family to worry about. I guess I will have some form of responsibility...what? for myself? Yeah...Pretty much aye!

You know, just then I was watching TV, and got bored. I didnt actually feel like watching TV! Oh and by the way, Im going to return Natalies book and not borrow the others! Ima go out and buy it! =) Well hopefully once I start work!

I wonder what its gonna be like. Dealing with customers that are bitchy. I heard there are so many that are bitchy and stuff. I guess I can handle it! The money is worth. I guess Ill be getting paid to literally put up with their shit!

I just remembered, I still need to find a third song to sing. Ive been sticking to songs that I can play on the guitar, and which I dont need back up! Its funny, Im singing everyone elses HSC pieces. LOL So far, Im going to sing "Officialy missing you" which was Malias HSC piece. UHH...An original written by Floral and I which was florals old HSC piece and Im even thinking of doing "At last" Ima sing it first though and then see if I like the way I sing it or not!

Anyway, I might download it right now hehe

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Past memories

They stick around, no matter what! Even the ones you dont want to remember! I dont know why Im talking about this though! LOL! Anyway, I think, hold up, lost my train of thought...YEP its gone LOL!

Anyway, I was suppose to go woolongong today, but, I didnt end up going because of the car. It got handicap because of the heat, and seriously the car can justcome suck me off! I hate that car! LOL! Anyway, we went back home and...OML I have the sudden crave for chocolate! I think I might go eat dinner after this! GOSH! itfeels good to be home! Ive just realised I dont like staying over other peoples houses! I mean, I dont despise it or anything! But, I just prefer my own home, my ow bed, and bathroom and blah blah! I really just wanna, I dont know.

Ive come to realise that Id have to learn to let go of my girls! I mean, I'm actuall willing to do that! But I mean, Id love to meet up with them here and there! But I think the effort of trying t keep us together is pointless. Reguardless, we're gonna drift! But, I would honestly do anything for those girls! well, not literally. I do have my limits. Every one does!

You know what? The other three cars that made to the beach, one of them had my stuff including my tooth brush! Thats the only thing I want! Like seriously, they havent come back from the beach yet! Im hoping they'll stop by and drop off my stuff. HAHA They must be so annoyed!

One more thing, My cousin Sieli is a FRIKEN TIGHT ASS =D HAHAA...thats just how the bitch is! =D

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hula hoops

Funny, I can hula, but I cant do the hula hoops! Anyway, I have a real bad suspicion about something! Quite interesting...and dazzling...too bad I aint puttin it up here...haha suck on that!

Anyway Multicultural day was good...well, I liked it =D Im tired though, and yet Im willing to go to a concert with my mum ad my cousin! Wonder if its gonna be interesting! Never know, I might get lucky and pick up ;) AIIINNNNGGGGG!!!! HAHA

Anyway, Im off, to bluge a while before mycousin gets here! Gonna be a while till she gets here

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exhausted

am so friken tired!

Im so exhausted that Im not bothere talking to people on MSN! Sorry guys, if you read this! BUT ANYWAY! today was REAL exhausting! I must say, I just wanna watch TV

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Mood swings

I read things wrongly, I see them the way I wanna see it! And not the way that I know I should be seeing it! I dont know whats wrong with me! I just simply have a MAJOR weakness for BOYS!

Anyway. Money can be one evil thing! I get so angry over it. Why do people want money. When you want it for different reasons, does it change what you are? Am I making sense. Because words seem to be just scatered across my mind!

Ive had mental reak down before, actually just recently LOL! I don know why its all coming back! Anyway Ima go back on facebook. I forgot that I have to holla at Nat for her remarkable message that she sent me. It was FRIKEN hilarity!

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you have gotta be kidding me

Why do you still linger on in my mind! I dont mind though haha. I can handle it. Im a big girl. Sound a bit like a loser. Wanna know why? Because I am one!

I was gonna go with my dad to his appointment, but Im not gonna go no mroe because I got stuff at school today! GOSH! Im soo happy! I got an interview FINALLY! to geta job. Its funny though! I always promised that I wouldnt get a job at McDonalds because of the customers. But, Im so desperate for work that I dont care! I have an interview two days before my audition to go to the conservatorium! Its the international one. Like how...gay does that sound. I just need singers! Thats my only problem! Or mabe I should use songs that dont requireback up vocals. That wouldbe much safer I guess! Anyway I chilled with my cousins today. My normal average bludgy day!

I also watched Bruno today. May I just say, he is bloody psycho! and handicap! And hilariously STUPID! Friken funny. Is he actually gay? Or is it just part of his character. You know who I havent spoken to in a long time? Moey! I shall facebook him as soon as I finish on here.

Now back to continuing on my first paragraph. Im such a sucker for this guy LOL! When will it end? When someone else steps in? Though Im in no rush to get into a relationship. Im really enjoying my new found freedom. Though Ive been snapping it really badly at the parents. I take my anger out on them! I really should stop! I dont know. Anyway, Ill just call it, a really BAD crush! HAHA...freak, I feel like a little kid, back in year 6! I guess I am a kid though! I never realised I hang out with my cosin who happens to be 20. When I realised I felt like such a little shit. Hanging out with someone so much older! I guess shes not that much older! only 3 years. But still. Shes no longer a teen! A step closer to the BIG 21! FREEDOM for fatty HAHA! Oh yeah, which reminds me. We went to the doctors right? and we found out that my cousin is over weight! LOL! She really didnt want me to see. But I was so persistent. Was that the right word to use? Im sure there's another word for it. But I just cant think of it at this present moment!

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Again

All of a sudden I felt like blogging! I have been reading though, ever since I said I was going to! 2 hours ago or something like that! The weather is nice now =) Its not so hot, and the breeze is quite strong through my window! LOL I shall close it before I drift off to sleep! Which shall be soon! I wish I was the one that had foxtel! Normal TV sucks nuts!

Tomorrow, Im going to Big Mommas house! LOL I wonder if I should ring my mum to remind her to book me in to see Benny! I wonder how my sister is going. I miss her. Its funny how I miss each sibling individualy at different times of my life! I still have to remember, they cant be a part of my life! I need credit though! and I still want new shoes LOL! Oh and my eye liner is finished. Hence the silver eyeliner Ive been wearing. Friken I stole that eyeliner (the silver one) It was an accident though, I dont mean it was an accident to steal it, but it was an accident to get the silver one! LMAO!

Im watching Mariah Carey on the late show or whatever it is

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Im agrovated

By everything! Im boiling hot too! Im just gonna read now!

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ave maria

Its almost that time of the month. The time that every girl despises! I wonder what Im gonna do tomorrow. Its gonna be friken hot. I want to go and buy eye liner. But I dont know if I would be able to handle the heat.

Anyway, I have nothing much to talk about. Like life is just, so BORING! =P Nah! Very interesting! Might just stay home and clean up tomorrow

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Is that what you want?

I just realised. I think I can finally look at him as a friend. Its gotten to the point where I feel abit grossed out at the fact that I actually liked him...oh well, lol

Far out, my hands are always dry! It sucks. Oh snap! I gotta remember to do Sielis CD! Ima do it after this.

You know what I like? I like being able to not care about what people say. I love it! I love it when someone will come at you with some insult, and ou just stand there and smile with out the slightest feeling of care! I mean people usually say they dont care with te feeling of anger! But, to be able to say it and really mean it still feelin happy as if no ones said anything to you at all! Ive been feeling that alot today =D HAHA

But, my dad, when he swears, I get offended! I just wanna slap him out when he does! It pisses me off so much its not funny!

We have the youth thing tomorrow! I hate pule la'a, but I like it at the same time! HMMM

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Story of my day

Well, I cleaned, for like the first time! and I literally cleaned ALL DAY! started at around 12 ish...finished around 6 ish! LMAO I cleaned my kitchen. It was a friken mission. But, I acually had fun doing it LOL! i LITERALLY have NOTHING to do HAHAHA! and not really anything to write about, except that I like this guy that lves in Canberra and I met him on Tagged LOL =D yeah, nah, GAH! we have youth tomorrow =D WOO Ive been waiting for something constructive to happen! Anyway, Im out koz yeah! Just gonna read twilight!

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love at first sight =P???

The highlight of my day. It had me dazzled for most of the day!

I was at the station, with my cousin, we were on our way to Cabra. We were sitting there smoking, and, there was this guy across the station, he caught my attention because he idiotically lifted himself up with his arms on this pole, usually Id be annoyed at attention seekers like that, or show offs. But I was more stunned by his strength, and his guns ;) anyway, he finally sat down, and stared at me reall obviously, I stared back as well. DAHAHA! seriously we just stared at each other the whole time. I got so into staring that when my cousin was talking I couldnt hear her anymore LMFAO! It was hilarious when se got my attention, realising how intense our eye lock was! BHAAHA! My cousin was like what the hellare you looking at on the other side, but she didnt look! LMFAO! I got really shy because she busted me, it made me really shy! HAHAHA!! But I didnt stop looking at him! Its making me laugh right now, just thinking about it! HAHA! Anyway,we continued to stare, and he waved at me. I didnt know how to react! I didnt know whether to wave or not. His wave was a really shy one! I just smiled. I was like to my cousin, "I think he just waved at me" and I couldnt stop smiling, and my cousin was making me laugh by making fun of me! I was telling her that I was too shy to wave back. She just laughed at me and didnt look at him! She continued to talk to me by the way. I couldnt concentrate on what she was saying! I was pretending to pay attention though! HAHAHA! Anyway the guy Iwas eyeing out had company. Two girls. They were looking at me too! HAHA! I just assumed they were his family! or friends. I dont think family would look at a random girl their cousin or brother is looking at with a smile that was quite encouraging! LOL! Anyway, we continued to just stare, and my cousin was catching on to what was going on! He got up and grabbed something from a bag and he was looking to see what time the train was coming, and he jogged somewhere. I was hoping he would cross to my side. He did! LMAO! He was looking at me while he was on the bridge hahaha...BUT! he never made it ovr to me. I saw him. But I was too shy to go to him, I was begging that he would come to me! HE DROPPED HIS NUTS!!! >=( Dissapointed much! He went back to the other side. Continually staring at me. My cousin looked at him this time! And the girls on the other side were also staring at me, espeacially when he crossed over to my side! LMAO! My cousin was shocked at how badly he was fully looking at me haha. She was like "His full looking at you" I was like "Yeah I know" I felt real bad and dissapointed when his train came. STUPID DROP NUT! HAHAH!! Oh well, after that I was quiet mooded. Didnt really talk much! I think I stayed that way for the rest of the day! LOL...well, fat chance I'll ever see HIM again!

Anyway, you know what I hate? old men that stare! get so pissed off and frustrated! Oh and I finished twilight! Anyway Im hungry! Oh and I seen my mum today =)

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Ok, I might be having an early night tonight! Because, all of a sudden I dont wanna read! I think I might try again after this actually! Its funny, but the internet is slowly starting to bore me! I guess this feeling could be temporary! But what I do with my time now is completely FREE! I dont need to worry about wasting time because Im taking a break! The future is promising at the moment! Events to come are as well. I want my cousin to hold a baby shower for her sister, and will not rest until she agrees to throwing her one. Im almost 18, it just feels good to not be restricted on certain things! Espeacially the purchasing of cigarettes and alchol, and also entry to clubs! I still havent been to one! But yeah! Going under age? Not really a goal of mine! In my opinion it such an easily achieved goal, espeacially for girls!

I doubt that I will be going to see PJ on her birthday! I have no money, because I have no job! I want a job, but am currently awaiting responses from job applications I have already sent! SHIT I almost forgot that I have to apply for my audition to AIMC! I'll do it now, though m not bothered.

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No tittle today! Because simple I dont have one! I guess it would be a better ida to wait and see what I write about! Well, Im just gonna write about yesterday! I got up like at 7! I was gonna read a book till 8...friken got so into the book that I lost track of time. Luckily Sieli texts me, which made me look at my phone. I was like SHIIITTTT it was like 8:30 so I uickly got up to get ready! Friken Moe the ass slept in! Koz I told him to come! Yeah well anyway, me and sieli went looking at the shops in town hall! and can I just say! I DIG IT ;) So going shopping there the next time I have money! Which will hopefully be soon!

Anyway Moe came and we caught the bus! LOL and then we got there. Its pretty small actually! AICM! I booked my audition! Its in December! SO I shall be warming up my vocalsLOL and practicing. Amyway I need to pee so Im out

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HI

I am totlly absorbed by twilight =D

Anyway, spent the day at Big Mommas! Went shopping with Sellz, it was funny =D I love spotting out stupid things! and teasin her...gives an excuse to laugh! I wonder when I will have to talk to Maileva about getting drunk and puling out on my "Akonaki" in church!

I dont care what the church will think! They can all go.....yeah you can guess the rest of that sentence.

I think that guy from melbourne rang me tonight! I hate them phone calls! He calls me, and doesnt speak! Like are you handicap? Im sure I gave you my number so you can TALK to me! NOT LISTEN to me, like some psycho! Its a thing guys do aye! Im so craving for a smoke! Anyway, I should really get to sleep. Busy day ahead of me tomorrow! Going to that conservatorium music! Gonna book my audition for next year! I still need the hook up for Valus school too (JMC)

Anyway, Im off

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Let it go

Letting go. Why is it so hard?? I cant seem to do it! Its much harder then I wish! But Im doing just fine for the time being! Im so tired. So hooked on that twilight book! I wanna keep reading, but I wanna go sleep at a reasonable time, though one o clock in the morning isnt that reasonable ahaha. My plan for tomorrow is to go to Big Mommaz house! I just wanna hang out there for the day! Im so tired right now actually! Ive missed reading so much man! and what greater way to start, then to start with a story that Im addicted to like many other people! more MILLION other people! Im so tired! I really just wanna keep reading! Thugh Ive already watched the movie. I finally can see what the girls keep complaining about, how there are so much events missing from the movie, they skip alot of things, blah blah! anyways, I might spen just a couple more minutes on reading then go to bed

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dannah

Well, I got dance exam tomorrow =) YEYA! plus its my last exam! Anyway, it felt really good to get out of bed early in the morning. It felt good to have the need to go somewhere HAHA! Far out, after tomorrow, Im free! WOW!

I dont have much to say, except that I havent studied, I might just read through Khanhs essays and then yeah.

Mr thwaites is such an abo! LOL

GOSH! I need to wash my hair, its just Im so lazy! LOL

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Young Free and Single

Well, did ABIT of study today, about half an hour! Its better then nothing! let me just say, I should pass retail, and Im so friken hot Maybe I should go for a smoke! LOL I want to...yeah...so..Im making fish nuggets LOL! I should go sleep early tonight! I shall! Though Im not tired...did jack shit today! So much for living life to the fullest! anyway Ima continue to do shit on net, Im so hot

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Nice day

I had a good day today man!

Confessed to my dad about how I got drunk. His response wasn't bad but it wasn't good either! Anyway, my dad continued to tell me how ugly Tevita is for me. Though I told him we're no longer together, my dad continues to remind me how ugly he was. His exact words. "You can do much better then that ugly little boy, uhh, Tevita" Its sad, but my dad has a real thing for looks. He even continued to tell me that my sisters husband is also ugly, and she could have done much better. But um, I agree with my dad, my sister could have done better. But I love her husband, he is awesome and from what I can see, he treats her right, and their son =) Simoni Sii =) My dad continued to lecture me. Anyway, so my mum comes back from the shops and tells my dad the event of when I was drunk! My mum started to cry as she told my dad the things that I had said! Well, I cried to my biological mother right in front of my mum and said "Why did give me away, Im now torn between two families" Man, I wish I could tell them how true those words were! My whole life I've been torn, LOST! Being lied to didn't help! They kept it secret from me! It seriously didn't help. They should have been honest from the get go. Don't know if it would have changed anything but, I dont know, maybe I wouldn't have been so confused. I wasnt vry welcome to the family that I was suppose to be a part of. The Faletau family! I guess I didn't understand the family. Its just, this family is so confusing and can be so irritating at times. They treated me like shit for nothing! I didn't even know what was going on. But, now? I know everything, and totally understand. Seriously? I think this all happened for a reason. I should just learn that I can't be with my family! I'm part of a different family. Always have been. So why fight it anymore right? People get confused when I talk about my family situation.

I'm so cool aye =P HAHA!

Oh anyway, about my day Big Momma and that came over to cut the grass and stuff! It was fun because we ate KFC and then Jammed till it was time for them to go! Jam sesh with the family is the BEST! Anyway, I didnt study at all today. I should study all day tomorrow!

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Nii

ts been a while since Ive last blogged. Man right now, it is extremely HOT!
I dont feel like talking much, LOL

Wonder what tomorrow will bring me. Should I go library? If I go library I would have to go early! HMM Might even just go to school. I dought Ill go. Maybe Tuesday.

Far man, myroom is trashed as aye!

Anyway Im off

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