What a wonderfull world

Well since my mums off to Tonga! I am now the lady of the lady of the house! Anyway! There is no difference now because I ALWAYS feel like Im the lady of the house LMAO! Anyway! I have to clean up before I think of even doing anything else! Man so much stuff on my mind, its bugging! Im still tired but Im fine! Just not in the mood for anything thats all, I almost feel like angry about nothing! Anyway! things to do...there is soo much! I havent blogged properly in AGES! and about lalala...I GIVE UP! waste of my time! BUT then again I cant help myself! Just SO DAMN interesting!

anyway! My cousin and her boyfriend man!! Yeah oml I did the stupidest thing but like Im so bored on Vitas page these days, there use to be always something to do on his page, something to snoop on! Theres NOTHING at all no more! SOOO I commente all his blogs! SAD AND BORED KID mmuch!

Anyway my cousins sitting outside on the phone to her man! Like they're on the phone 24/7 and me? Im blogging in the lounge! While my dads sitting next to me listening to the tongan radio! My bros gonna go work tonight SOOO I might just watch foxtel tonight ;) YIIIAAAHHH BUT! I HAVE TO CLEAN AND start studying! Fuck man! anyway Ima browse the net just abit more then chuck up my washing! and clean this ugly house! Toodle loo

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BOOST

Today? I had y first trial assesment! It was for dance!I did alright my viva's were good, could've been better. But yeah my performances were good BUT My Major performance fuckin I forgot the steps and full had to randomly continue to move untill I remembered the movement! LOLOL!!! Anyway! It was good! But I didnt do it properly! I was like LITERALY TIRED!!!

Anyway! tonight? Im doing nothing! Ima bludge! But tomorrow night! I shall start on some much needed study! And also practice for Monday night! Which reminds me PEOPLE! COME!! 6:30 Bini shell ;) Its our year 12 music performances, if you like rock and old school AND new come along:) and yeah Im performing CHOOHOO!

Im makin alot of my family come! Gonna invite more of my cousins! OH which reminds me I have to ask my mum and that from claymore if they wanna come! I shall ring them after this blog and set up my dads dialysis! OH and I have a funny feeling that vita will have much more to be written about him on my blog! BUT you never know...tables can turn! Just like it has for him!
Anyway! Im off to do stuff like ring my mum and setup and eat! and maybe chill with my cousin and SLEEP!! SLEEPING IN TOMORROW YIIIAAAAHHHH

Anyway Im offf

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BRRRR....its cold...

Well I am still awake although I only had less then two hours sleep last night! I dont know it doesnt feel good my eyes are fricken tired Anyway just had something on my mind!

Ima snob, and I know it, but Im NOT a snob all at the same time! Main reason for my resistance at any form of eye-contact is...your just as bad a snob! And PLUS I think Im wasting my thoughts LOL! I can read your actions like a childrens book...thats how easy you are to read! SOmetime I think Im just boughing! But...intuition doesnt speak to me =( Or maybe im ignoring it! I dont know!

OTHER

I know school gives you a hectic schedule! But Im sick of the "I'll call you" and no phone call. BUT I understand, I guess thas the main thing that keeps me there.

anyway! Schools takin my sleeping hours, and fucked it all up! I have trials tomorrow! Gotta do my logbooks and go to sleep!

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asian lolies!

well, nothing to say! Koz Im cool like that

TOODLELOO

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Public Speaking

Something I dont really like!

Still havent started! Koz I though id chuck a hero and go to my cousins house! Like BAD IDEA

Now I have to do my speech and watch the DVD my brother bought for me to watch and go to sleep! I dont know! I shall watch it later! I have to do my speech! ARRGHHH STRESSFUL WEEK! Like seriously! Cant wait till this week is over! But then I got another stressful week next week! ARGGHHHH WHYYY!!!

Anywas cant waste to much time on here

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Short and sweet

Well I hung out with my cousins today! Dropped my mum off at the airport! Got a call from Floral! But I couldnt stay on the phone because I had to say bye to my mum!

IM LOVING IT!

Someone! SOMEONE! ;) Com back to me! LMAO!

Anyway! Ima jump in the shower! Find some form motivation to do my work! AYE!

Well, nothing on my mind! EXCEPT apparently someones gonna ring me tomorrow! Am I going to reply on bebo? NO! Why? I dont know! I just dont want to! I dont know!

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Dear Mamma

Well my mums off to Tonga tomorrow! Right before school! YAY!! I swear now I'm stuc with just all male genders at home! You dont undersand how much it sucks! They gang up on me hard out! It sucks! But anyway! I stil havent done jack shit! I literally just was on the net the whole day!

but yeah! I should post up the piks that I have of me and Benny on facebook! But like seriously? We took so many that I'm not bothered! MAN! It sux I miss my family already =( And I only jus seen them yesterday! Well at least I got to see them! I espeacially miss my sister sita!FARR I havent seen her ever since her wedding! Whish was last year August! =( She's due next month =) YIIAAAHHHH First half cast in the immediate family! LOLOL!

Well I have sort of decided not to go for it! Simply because I dont know if I want it! I mean I do but it works two ways you know? Soo yeah! Plus I should seriously forget about it! LOL

My elbows hurt from being leaned on!! shuxx anyway! GEES I cant help the feeling!!!

tomorrow is the last day of holidays:( ARGGGHHHH Anyway! I shall go

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I promise

I have finally figured you out! I know that your a liar! and will remain one! You talk alot of shit and you cant be trusted! The affect you had on me was HUGE. I dont know what it was that I saw in you! I must say. Love is blind! And I know Ive said this a million times! But actualy I wont say it! anyway! Im going to browse abit, then get straight to work!

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Claymore

< -- Me and my little brother benny...yeah doesnt look little aye!








Anyways! My brother has alot of shit going on! Today made me realise how much we're really growing up! I feel sorta sad because I have to sort of let go of that little brother I use to have! And welcome an almost full grown imature brother! Today I saw him with a girlfriend for the FIRST TIME! I must admit I was abit beweirded by him holding her and stuff! But then again I was fine with it :) FARRR I just cant believe were growing up!!! Like...its just...things are abit different now! Anyway! My sister nancy I shall miss and my nephew Patoni.

Anyway! I couldnt believe I was allowed to go today! I finally went up there with permission! I mean to Claymore! I was walking out of the house celebrating!
AND OML!

Can I just not sit next to a HOTTIE on the train! And I wont lie! The dude was hot;) He was full checkin me too aye! ;) But yeah, maybe someday I'll bump into him ;) He full had that typical latin look on him! I was like DROOL! Nah but its funny how your full digging the nigg but you just sit there like you think nothing of him! LMAO! Man! I caught him lookin at me like how many times! :( But it suxx how you dont say hello to strangers, Like on net and that, its all like easy as? and then in real life situation, you wouldnt actually talk to that person though you want to!

Anyway! My dad picked me up from the station:) I met m brothers girl, or ex girlfriend shall I say! Anyway! Yeah it was mad seeing ALL my brothers and sisters :) Only problem was, 2 of my brothers were at my mum and dads house, and I was with everyone else at my sisters house LOL! So I had to go to my mum and dads to wake em up! FARRRR!!! Bloody alcholics!!

Anyway! Just then I wastched like two movies:) I guess the'll be my last for a very long time! I'm going to do my speech and logbooks! And study! Which I so majorly need! But first of all, my main focus for now, is my logbooks, and my speech! They're both due next week! Mind you I have 3 logbooks to complete! Then I shal study hard out after that! THE PRESSURE IS ON MOTHER FUCKER!!! ;) Love it!

For now? Im forgetting about my issues! Focus on school! YIIIAAAHHH!!! I had a great holiday! But Im afraid it sorta ends here for me! Anyway! I'm going to browse abit then sleep for a good days study ;)

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I gotta big ego

wish I had a big ego! Well, I dont really know what a ego is actually!

Well anyway! I FINALLY!!! told my girls about whom lalala is! Lets just say my girls are cool

Im sick of this shit! Im going tomorrow! Whether anyone likes it or not! Ima jump the train do anything! I dont give a shit! I dont understand! I will NEVER EVER understand! Why they dont want me to see my family! I dont understand! I jjust wanna smoke! and get in bed! As soon as my dad goes to bed! yeah anyway! Toodles

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Numb

I'm so tired from dance. I even have a head ache! And I wanted to do log books tonight! I wanna nap man! But Im hungry as! Anyway! The FOLEY CENTRE! Is now a DANCE STUDIO!! It was awesome! The mirrors the floor the sound system? Was just AMAZING!



Anyway! I fugured, Im over my WHOLE situation, or whatever you wanna call it! I cant believe my whole holiday was WASTED!! But anyway! Im just glad Im over it! It feels good I can focus moreon school now! Maybe I should stick to it! Im so tired man!



I lied! I lied so bad its not funy! Your gonna laugh when you find out the truth. Though I do fear that you already know the truth WITHOUT my permission! I would feel really PISSED if you already knew the truth! But I dought and just hope you dont!



I wish it was my own little secret SERIOUSLY! But NO! I had to open my BIG MOUTH! LMFAO!! Funny! Oh well, I ran into alot of my family today, it was really weird! I was at cabra and got on the train to find my cousin his girlfriend and my niece on the train! LOL! His grifriends latin my niece is GORGEOUS! I dont have a photo though! Anyway I saw another bunch of my little boy cousins with their girlfriends...It was like boy cousins with their girlfriends day today!!!!And seriously? Their girlfriends? are all white LMAO! ;) Love it:)



Anyway Im really hungry! And I still wanna talk to lala but I havent spoken, koz someones been partying ;)







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Pointless

Dont know why Im blogging right now. LMAO!

Maybe koz I cant go on facebook koz someones on my account! LMAO! PEEJAY!

appy lalas on. though not speaking! Just the presence is nice! LMAO! FREAK!

POO!

DOO DOO DOO DOO DOO! I practiced dance think I shall continue! I full dont know the last part we were taught! =S

Move BITCH, get out the way!

DONT HAVE TO READ THIS! JUST SKIP! =)

Well, I havent finished my speech! I'm not even half way! No where near half way! I've sort of given up! It shits me, life being a bitch to me at the moment! I dont know how to pull myself back up! I'm stuck! Emotionaly, mentaly and physically! I'm not a happy kid at the moment! I am one angry mother fucker who has major issues! I may appear nice, and talk to you as if nothings wrong! BUT THERE IS SERIOUSLY SOME FUCKED UP PEOPLE AND SHIT IN MY LIFE!

Seriously Im an angry kid, I have so much anger in me its scary! I'm afraid to let it show! If I think about it Ill do soething stupid! I dont know like leave home! Dissapear! AGES AGO! I made a promise to myself, if I ever plan to leave home! They wont be able to find me! Know why? Koz I got hook ups they dont know about! They wont leave me alone! I'm sick of this family bullshit! I'm sick of it man! I'm sick of being part of two families! I wanna go...I dont wanna be here! But I love this family! I'm so lost! They dont understand the affect it has on me when they bitc about my biological family IKE HELLO FUCKING STUPD FUCK HEADS!!! I AM ONE OF THEM! FUCK! man the word FUCK doesnt even cut it for me. This amount of anger and pain Im going through! Battle Ive been fighting since I was FUCKING BORN!

THE FUCK WORD DOESNT CUT IT FOR ME!

Suprised Im not emo. I guess I was blessed with brains! No offence to emos! Anyway lets talk about emos shall we.

I dont know why any white person with pitch black hair and dresses up like a punk is considered an emo! Like wtf? Just koz people dress like that dont mean they cut themselves aye! MAN! Some bitch that dresses normalyy could be fucking emo!

Just tryna take my anger on something else! Over all, Im an actually happy person! WHY? Because I choose to forget about family bullshit! I dont pay attention when family issues occur! Frankly I dont give a shit! Though its family. I have enough shit on my plate to add on someone elses shit! If family come to me seeking for help or a shoulder to cry on, then I'll be there. Other wise? NOT FUCKIN INTERSTED! I dont give a shit literally!

Everyone has problems! and mine are ENOUGH! BUT I have exceptions for those that ar close to me...e.g my girls, and my mates!
speacially family!
Selfish? YES NO..I dont know! I guess it depends on how you look at it! To me? I dont give a shit whether its selfish or not!

I dont have patience for this shit! My mum has to be carefull with me right now! She makes one wrong move? I'm OUT!

Fuck education pretty much is the onlyting keeping me sane! But I have no motivation! WHY Koz I have all these fucking problems! I wanna get rid of it! I wanna be free. I wanna get away from EVERY MOTHER FUCKER I KNOW! LOL I sound emo aye! LMAO!

I'm just sick! It gets locked up, all these feelings of depression! I lock it away! Hide it! My dad would call me an idiot if he ever read this! Well MAYBE I AM BITCH WHATS IT TO YOU!
I'm so fucking sick of it! Sick of the Faletau Family! Sick of pretty much being alive! I can just say this. LIFE IS HARDER THAN DEATH!...NO Im not gonna commit suicide! LMAO! Im not insane!

JUST PISSED! But after this? Im gonna go for a smoke! and feel better and come back as if nothing happened! I shall be normal LMFAO!! after this! This is how it is for me! Life goes on! Just like my favourite saying which sometimes I dont stick to

"MOVE THE FUCK ON"

This has got to be the BEST FUCKED UP HOLIDAY FOR ME! The thought of studying and school has never left my mind! But have I actually done anything? NO!

Ive sat around on the net or gone out! I do abit and thats it! PRECRASTINATE or however you spell it...broo I dont even know how to say it! ANYWAY!

:) The smiles I will keep on THE SHIT I GO THROUGH shall posted up on here for you to read!

If you dont like? NOT MY PROBLEM Koz I can type WHATEVER THE FUCK I WANT ON HERE AYE!

LIKE FUCK YOU!

OR SUCK MY .....I dont have a dick! and pussy sounds EEWWWYYYY!!!

PEOW!!

Oh and one major factor that keeps me here? The fact that one is sick! Doesnt have long! But I reckon he'll be here for a while! =) THANKFULLY!

Shall go for that smoke and forcefully make myself practice the dance or do my speech! Yeah I know Im suppose to quit! But you know what? I TRIED! My friends and my dad will be dissapointed! Not that plan on telling my dad! GEES I just cant hold back anymore! I dont want to anymore either! I REFUSE TO!

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I aint mad at you

Well I just woke up, I dont know whats wrong with the timing on this shit blog! It full says like 3am and shit when really it was like 7 or some crap when I post......

lost my train of though! LMAO! Sorta went into a daze! LMAO!

I was suppose to go to visit my family today! But last night I made the choice of staying home and practicing my dance making notes and my stupid english speech! It's what I get for not doing all of this earlier! GOSH! I dont know If I will have any time for anything for the rest of these holidays! Anyway! I planned my day today! Lets just hope I stick to my plans aye!

I will start as soon as I am done blogging!

I wonder llalalalala

I love using lalalalala to speak of what I want to talk about but cant....

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TAKE TWO

and what really burns me? Is that I liked someone as well, and did I choose lala over YOU. NO! Although I was over you, I knew it wouldnt take much effort to fall right back in that stupid heart of yours which pulls me in with such great force...LMFAO!! But then pushes me away! LOL I'm starting to get over it, as you can see I can now laugh at the situation instead of throwing eff words around!!

Anyway! I shall start on school work!

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Distracted!

I now have shit on my mind! It bugs me how much it has consumed of me! It's my fault I let it, which is why Im blogging so much about it! Im tryig to get rid of it. "Shake it off"

In My Head

Why? Why are do yous both haunt me, though one haunts more than the other. It would be nice not to feel for any. I am angry at one, and curious about the other! I miss one, and want to really want to know the other. One makes my heart sore, the other makes my heart race at any form of connection! Which one is worth more?

I know one really well, and the other not so well. I yearn to know the other. I yearn to forget about the other. I love one, I like one. I dig both. One was STUID >=( One is...well I dont know the other!

I miss you BIGTIME! But my heart can actually move on at the moment! Thanks to.............. The other so far, is the only one. GOSH! This is what has fucked up my holidays! The fact the other was so FUKING STUPID!

You dont understand how PISSED off I am at you! Seriously! WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU DO IT! ASSHOLE! WHAT THE FUCK! FUCK YOU BITCH ASS!! I FUCKING HATE YOU! IF I SEE YOU TOMORROW I WILL CHUCK A TANTRUM! I dont know how to forgive you for it! I think Im really pissed off because I was willing to give you that chance! AND YOU FUCK IT UP ASS HOLE! FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU! ASS HOLE!

FUCK YOU WITH A FUCKING CAPITAL EFF FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU TEVITA MOALA!

AHH I feel much better now..oh and one more thing!

FUCK YOU VITA!

I STILL FUCKING LOVE YOU! FUCK HEAD FUCK YOU! YEAH AND JUST ONE LAST TIME!!

FUCK YOU!

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My day out With Mohamad Mustapha (Moey)

Well, today! Got up at 9 just like I planned to. I got up and did my mums hair! It took me half an hour to dye it! Anyway! I got ready and so did my mum. She dropped me off at Fairfield station while she went into Fairifield to do whatevers! I bumped into Naomi and Tammy and Baby Marlee (Naomi's sister) Yeah, but Marlee was sleeping, and she's scared of me anyway! Anyway! I bought my train ticket and waited for th train!

I got to cabramatta station thinking I would have to wait for Moey, but turns out he was already infront of the library! LMAO! Soo Instead of walking into the library, Mr Moey was hungry! So we went to go look for somewhere to eat, instead we walked into a random shop and bought some yellow biscuit! LMFAO! I dont know what you call it so yeah! Anyway! He made me chip in the asshole! A dollar. Anyway! We ate some and chatted outside before we went inside for a good day of STUDYING! Well he wanted to be "creative" and take piks. LMAO! We did work up until about 1:30, then we took a break finishing the packet of the biscuits! Then we chilled outside for abit..singing My Girl, LMAO! It was prety funny! Anyway! I was going through his phone and realised I knew who Vita liked. Matter fact I spoke to her lightly once! Thats about it! Anyway! I'm not gonna talk about it because I am apparently "shallow". Anyway! We went back in and did some more work!

Left at about quater past three and waited for out trains! And TADAH! Thats my day with Moey!

On a more personal note! I cant believe Vita likes her! Or liked her or WHATEVER! I wonder if they even ever met! His a loser! LMAO! Anyway! I'm excited for lalalalalala....Its exciting stuff! My stomach is cramping for NOTHING! Like how does that work! Anyway! Im still shocked at who Vita liked! You dont understand how fucking shocked I am! I'm not gonna say why koz its mean! But I CANT BELIEVE IT NIGGA!

Anyway! Time to move onto something more interesting ;) Like lalalalala! I dont know! I dont mind, and I wont push anything with lalalala, Ima just go with the flow, koz apparently lalala's gotta past as well! So I guess...I dont know =)

Anyway! Im going to do sme more web browsing!

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Beginning!

Well it wasnt that hard...I have to say! Problem is, when I see I have to talk now! I cant jus sit in my comfort zone and just watch on! I think lala knows now! MAYBE! Im not sure! Small talk though! SHAME barely! But fun! I wouldnt know! Doesnt seem to be VERY interested, but then again! WHO KNOWS!

I have a NEW buddy now! WOOHOO! thanks to the internet and its resources, and my stalking abilities! ;)

UMM anyway! I should really be sleeping koz Im meeting up with Moe tomorrow and PLUS! I have to do my mums hair before I go! BLOODY HELL! My mum and I ful have it planned as well! Im gonna get up at 9, do her hair then when her hairs done she'll drop me at the station while she goes and does whatever! Anyway! I dont know! Moes bringing a freaken camera tomorrow whilst I have this FAT zit on my face! I have to organise my stuff to go tomorrow! SHhould do logbooks, and Music notes preferably and yeah! Cabra library WOOOHOO!! and then on Thursday Im going to Claymore to visit the family! But its still undercover so SHHHH....yeah...and on friday got dance practice at school then Saturday! Might hopefully go formal shopping! BRO! I need to hurry up and go Formal shopping! I'm really not that eager Like I cant be fucked FOR REAL! anyway!

I should go to bed

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ZIT

I have this big pimple on my face WANNA SEE?? Ill show you!

My fingers pointing to it!

Anyway! I still neglected to share time with "study" today. I startedon English! Just touched n first base and thats it!! FARRR anyway! Got shit to do like chck facebook and go see what my dads doing! Anyway! Shall blog latermybe

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Just a thougt for ze blog

So, I got up at like 11:30 ish. I dont know where my phone is. I was holding it, and now its lost omewhere under my blankets! Seriously can't be bothered looking for it! Anyway! my mum? She bought home soup for me and my dad. BRO! I dont eat soup! Although I still ate it, it was nice! But Makkaz wouldve been perfect! Oh well anyway! Something I've always been thinking of blogging but just never did.

MY ATTITUDE TOWARDS MY PARENTS (Speacially my MUM)

Well lets just say, I'm nice alright! BUT! I have a really bad attitude problem when it comes to my parents sometimes, I mean WHO DOESNT? But umm see I think I go abit overboard with the way I speak to her sometimes, and even just the way I avoid socialising with her. I really dont mean it. I just cant help it! I dont know what it is. When she pisses me off I challenge her, as if I am the older one, like the one that knows it all, yet I despise people who think they know it all! Like one time she was going off at me because she couldnt find her glasses and said that I had miss placed it. But really SHE was the one that did it, and when I found her glasses I called her a "stupid idiot" UMM I know it doesnt seem like much, but morally for me? It was bad...I felt bad after it but I dont have guts to appologise to my mum EVER!

Anyway I'm sort of over the topic now because I have a feeling somethings gonna come back! Something that was suppose to fuck off and like someone else!!! I will not I REPEAT I WILL NOT FUCKING GO BACK THERE! I believe people deserve chances, but HOW MANY DO YOU FUCKING WANT MATE! I'm not a toy, you cant play with my feelings you fuck head! I dont think it wont! But yea ANWAY!!

I gotta get my english essay started SPEECH WHTEVER!

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WHYYYYY

Told you not to be suprised if I blog again!



But its on my mind!



Why is it on my mind! WHY Why did i have to see...WHYYY Seriously!!! I dont need this...But I cant get enough it! ARGGHHHH....Seriusly! Leave me be....I dont want it! I do, but shouldnt! I dont know why....I did want it real bad (Gosh that sounds abit wrong) I know yous dont know what Im on about! But...its PERSONAL! Do dont try to understand =)



GOSH! What will happen? I'm breatheless once near! Weakness of mine...Once upon a time lalalala DOO DOO DOO DOO DOO!



I gotta get some sleep!



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RANDOM I know! GOSH Bloody community channel! I always think about it when I say RANDOM! LMAO!



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Updated

Well, I found my related text =) CHOOHOO

I chose "Once were warriors" WHY? Because I know the movie inside out and I already have obstacles lined up and ready to go...Just off the top off my head =) Imagine when I ACTUALLY start thinking and listing the obstacles!

Anyway! I was going to talk about something....OH YEAH thats right Well turns out my advice to Juniour about his little situation did him good! Love it when I'm right...Which for some reason, when it comes to other peoples love lives and I give them advice.....Its USUALLY ALWAYS right...Even ask Floral! But why cant I get my OWN right! FARRR!!! I think I get blinded!

Anyway! Another thing that has happened since I last blogged, Moey rang! and got me to ring him back koz he had no credit :) Like how MANLY is that =P I kid MOEY! :) He talks ALOT!!...Alot about his day LOLOL!! But it was nice talking to him...been a while!

Anyway! My dad and I had a rather interesting conversation as well! We spoke about history. Because I mentioned to him. "If you think about it, all the natives of colonised countries are BUMS" and he said "Because they are ill-treated" He was really passionate about this statement. I really wanted to challenge him, but I know when I wont win, so I didnt try! I slightly tried but his argument would be too strong for me to even go there LOL!

Anyway! My sister is planning on buying my parents a mini-four wheeler ;) Loved the idea =) But she told me not to tell no one! I'm excited. But she said shes thinking of just buying a car as well. Problem is....My mum dont really cars, for some STRANGE as reason! I wouldnt know! SERIOUSLY!

Anyway! Notice when I start a new paragraph, most of the time it starts with "Anyway!"

LoL Anyway :P

I shall blog another time! Dont be suprised if I blog again tonight ;)

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JOYFUL little girl!

WELL HELLO HELLO!

Nate speaking here...also known as Maniate (Man-I-Ate) - (something good last night)

ANYWAY!

STRAIGHT TO THE MOTHER EFFING POINT;)

Well see. Vita? he liked someone else right? I was all gee with it though! FINALLY could let go of him ;) But I was being a snoop as usual and found out that the chick he likes is TAKEN! OML I couldnt stop laughing!! It was SOO fuckin funny! Anyway! I wouldnt go back there anywhere! And Im pretty sure he knows it....Im not saying his gonna want me back or anything though! Or is that what Im saying! WHO GIVES A SHIT! It just made my day! LMFAO!! Oh and I hope he doesnt read this EVER!! If you do read this Vita? My deepest appologies...but you know I can not STOP laughing and teasing you! Its just TOO FUCKIN FUNNY!

Anyway. I did alot of thinking today whilst at mycousins house..which I spent the WHOLE day. Isbeen ages since I spent the day there in a LONG time!! Anyway! I was thinking about my little chmistry feel with lalalala and I was thinking! I'm wasting my time these holidays thinking about it. Because I could just run into thinking way ahead of myself like I did with Vita! SOOO...I decided! It wont happen! I guess I wont find out till...lalalala but YEAH till then! Mind will be on my MUCH neglected boyfriend "Stud" Do I miss "study" NO!! For all I care "study" can come suck me off! Yeah I know bad choice of words! WHO CARES!

Anyway!I had fun at my cousins! Although most of the day all I could think about was STUPID english assignment! ARGGHHHHH....seriously oh and lalalalal....yeah...I know Im a loser! Anyway! I thought my friendship with Juniour was LONG dead! My old deary best friend! But apparently not...He still comes to me for advice on chicks...not suprised he hasnt asked about Vita!...LMAO! anyway! If anything happens with lalala it would be SWEET but if not?? ALL SWEET again! I guess it would be better anyway! And my tuition? Its not working for me lately! Does it switch on and off. I believe it when its wrong and I dont when it WRONG! Delusional I know...Who cares! Let me be in my own little world of fantasy! LOVE it!

Anyway! I think I will go Claymore these holidays! I cant resist my family man! I tried! But I cant! I'm going on Thursday! I shall tell my mummy to be prepared oh and my brother! I shall go early! Anyway! I'm off! to go shower and maybe face book it abit! Then get English started (heard that one before aye =P) Anyway! Might blog later! About how I'm going with the speech! Still have to think of a related text that I wanna use. I wont be hard I know! But I still wanna choose wisely! One that would be good at! If you get what i mean! anyway! TOODLES

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Topic: NOTHING

Ok, So I havent blogged a deep and meaningful blog in a long time. Just been blogging about lame events of the day lately! Well I can say one thing right now, "I'm really hungry".

Something to confuse and arouse your interests

*I typed it then highlighted it and DELETED*

I dont know.

Most certainlygot my attention, but do I still have yours!

I;m really hungry man! I want some bread or toast or something!

I guess this is another failed attempt of a proper blog...I mean in my own perspective of a "proper" blog!

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Breatheless

So, went to church today! It was at Pulela'a. Thats the centre of all the churches, and I hate having church combines. WHY? Because it means church can go on for AGES! Espeacially with the feed afterwards. Its an all day process! And I know this is really inappropriate to mention! But my left tit FUCKING HURTS!!! LOL It seriously does! AHHHH Anyway!

I didnt end up doing notes on my way to church today at all! I didnt even take my laptop! Well instead? I listened to my mp3 in silence the entire way. Contemplating about random things as usual! We get there and it wasnt that packed! Man was I happy or what? I love it when its not packed! LMFAO!! Funniest thing happened in church!

I was bored right? So I decided to send a note to any random! LMAO!! through blue tooth. But I recognised the bluetooth name of one of the guys from my church! LMAO!! So I sent a note saying "Hey :)" and he was like full looking around and everything! LMAO!! I was trying not to laugh! I sent another note sayin "Your cute" He kept rejecting it but I kept sending! Finally excepted and he was FULLY looking around! LMFAO!! It was funny shit! But then he put his phone away so I was bored on facebook for the rest of it! It was the high light of my day!

We were finally on our way back home aye. Listened to my mp3 in my own little world! Loved it! I am now sitting in the lounge feeling abit sleepy! My brother made dinner! pork mash and some weird salad! It was nice but Im hungry again! Anyway! I have to wear two jumpers to stay home!

I'm getting sick of my little brothers crush/bestfriend! She always says hi! LOL...its cute though =) And my other brother? Benny? I spoke to his girl on msn! Dodnt talk much! I felt akward actually! Anyway! Excited for first day back! Not really, just excited to catch the bus =P Or...I dont know! LOL!

Anyway! I think I may have a cup of coffee and facebook it then maybe watch a few movies if my bro still had the DVDS that were due last week! LMAO!

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PEOOWW

Well, its Sunday morning, once again! What to do!

Well I have to get ready for church, thats one thing I have to do! I might take my laptop to church, just to do notes on my way there and back!

Dont know why I'm blogging, theres nothing to blog about! I dont have anything on my mind either, well I do But it's one of those where if you read it, I would kill you ;)

Anyway! Gotta wait for my mum to finish her shower so I may brush my teeth. Been face bookin it most of the morning! Maybe I wont take my net with me to church, just so I dont get distracted!

Anyway! Im gonna go, and get ready

Yous guys hav a LOVELY day! While I sit in church not bothered trying to understand what the preachers talking about. Shall day dream the entire time

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Lost much!

Hola TENGAZ ;)

Whats cracking in your worlds?

Yeah ANYWAY! straight to the point!

I was SO lost today! I was bloughing my way everywhere around ummm central! I'm so not bothered right now! Last night I was suppose t go sleep early! And I did sort of, at 11:30 ish! Thats pretty early! Anyway! Got up and didnt want to get out of bed. I was sneezing as if I had a cold! (which I dont) It was due to lack of sleep! Therefore I was in a REALLY bad mood before I left for the city! So the usuals happened, I took it out on any one that spoke to me!

Anyway! Was suppose to go with Steph today! But poor thing got sick! SOO, Yeah went all by my lonesome! I was so lost when the bus driver was asking me which gate I wanted to enter the uni in. Some dude walked up o me and was like "I'm going there to I'll walk in with you to the gate" Man was I have never been so happy to be spoken to by a complete stranger! Anyway!

We got off, I followed him, but the dude wanted to fricken power walk it aye. There were these two girls behind me that had also caught the same bus that I was on, so I stopped and asked them if they were here for the lectures, and yeah they were so I walked with them! Can't remember what school they go to. It was foreign to my brain So yeah! I have a really bad thing for when people talk to me. Sometimes I'm not listening at all! Like AT ALL! Or I will be, but will come in one ear and out the other! LOL! Selective hearing! ;) LOVE IT!

Ummm, yeah anyway got to where ever it was we were suppose to go. Then had to line up and they recorded your number and gave you a booklet! And OML I went to the room and sat down next to some chick that goes to my school! Bro this dude with dread locks cam in and sat down infront of me! AND OMGOSH! I was looking at his booklets and farrr he was in the wrong room aye! He was doing Modern History! MAN seriously I was dying to tell him that he was in the wrong room But some things stopped me. A). I might embaress him B). Ummm....I didnt wanna be K.M dude! K.M means kai mumu'a, yeah its Tongan, and I dont know how to translate LMAO! SOO I dont know...just pretend you know what I'm on about! FARRR MAN You dont understand how much I wanted to tell him he was in the wrong room LMFAO!! But I couldnt do it. It's what I get for being shy towards people I dont know =S. Anyway the teacher walks in to the room and starts to get his stuff ready. On the screen it says Business Studies! And I was praying the dude would hurry up and realise he was in the wrong room LOL and yeah he did. Full turns to me " Is this business studies?" My response "Yeah"...Internal dialogue "FINALLY"

Anyway there was a five minute break, I was hungry! Got something to eat. Fricken for the rest of the lecture I pretty much sat there not listening. I had a head ache, was dying to go to sleep! Was fricken hungry! And did not wanna be there! So I decided that instead of staying after the lunch break I would leave! I know I missed out on the rest of the lecture but if I didnt come home then, I wouldnt be home till about 7! FARRR and plus I couldnt focus! Man I was gonna stay there but couldnt hack it! Too much talking, too fricken boring!

So lunch break came, I caught the bus bought hungry jacks, and waited for my train! Facebooked it most of the way back and ate the lollies I bought! Then got off at Yennora and walked it home! Man Tracey came to visit with the girls. They're gorgeous! Estella, Aisha, Amelia. are their names! LOL! I remember people use to think I was Estellas mum, just koz I'm black aye! LMAO! Nah Tracey's like a sister aye...well she is actually! My PALANGI (aussie) sister! Anyway I'm going to nap it after I eat some lollies and facebook abit more!

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TAKE TWO

A million years ago I posted up a blog about physical attraction or some BULLCRAP like that! Well I know now what you call it. You wont know what Im talking about unless you read that blog Im talkin about! Cant remember when I posted it or the tittle of that post! Anyway! I think I know now! Or maybe not. What penetrates chemistry? You know that type where yous look at each other and its like WOAHHH!!!! You get me? Well my last blog was saying like would it be due to physcal attraction or something else! Well I think I fugured out what mine is. PHYSICAL ATTRACTION!! ;) LMAO!

I SO wanna know, I wanna speak, I wanna really badly, take the risk? =( NGAWWWW I think back! Shit changes over a period of time! Must wait and see! I was so sure, but now? Not so sure! Its disturbing! anyway! I should go sleep already and wake up and do something constructive, other then facebook!

Wont leave my mind. Only cure for the past! CONFUSED? GOOD:D:D:D
Or are you getting my drift?

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Tittle

I should really be going to sleep! Since I have to wake at about 5:30am. But I dont want to go to sleep! Anyway! I'm getting interupted by my 13 year old brother on msn and his girlfriend or best friend or WHATEVER! My little brother likes her. I know it! His denying it! Now I'm trying to get him to confess!

I swear! He likes her!

Anyway! Tomorrow Tomorrow, dont want it!

I've been doing some thinking! My theory? It wont work out! But then I could be wrong! I dont know! and your probably thinking "what the hell's this bitch on about?"

BOOM BOOM! I'm bored! Should be asleep but I'm not! I feel like watching a movie, It was awesome watching Underworld on my laptop with headphones in my ear! LOL. Dont know why it was so awesome...it just was.

I dont know what I'm doing but I'm telling my little brother to tell his best friend that he likes her. Is that wrong? But he does like her! I feel weird tryna tell my little brother to tell her how he feels! BRO I feel so beweirded!

Farr out! I should really go

AHHH....I miss my deary little brother! It feels like just yesterday he would sook and sit on my lap! OR I would bash him until he stopped crying! Yeah...I was a cruel kid! Piss me off?? and I was an animal! Speacially to my brothers LOL!

Anyway should go

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Just a thought!

I'm tired and grumpy! So ignore the following:

So today? Met up with Kim! MAN It was great to see her. It was AWESOME!! Words can not describe how it was! Well anyway!

At the moment! I am feeling quite impatient! There is nothing to be impatient about though! This is the time where EVERYONE and EVERYTHING! pisses me off ;)

My dads questions about tomorrow "Are you sure its on tomorrow?"

I have to leave at like 6:55am tomorrow from my house!

My stomach hurts! And I'm not in the mood for my dads crap! Did I mention my stomach hurts?

UMMM...

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POODLES

Hello there

Wanna hear about my day?

NO?

I wasnt gonna blog about it anyway!

ANYWAY! I dont know why I'm blogging LOL!! Its one of those waste time ones!

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Baby I love your way

No hesitation right? =)

I found some related texts. Now just have to pick, hire the movie! and get started on this HANDICAP speech! I hate speeches! Why? Because your giving information to a room full of people. I'm not even passionate about "into the world". Maybe I can try relate at a personal level! That might help! Maybe I should think of the speech as a performance! I'll pretend I'm singing or dancing for a show! YEAH!....that'll SO work! It never does.

I would prefer to sing in front of a HUMUNGOUS crowd rather then say a speech infront a room filled with about 40 or more students! or is it only 30? Because we join classes.

Anyway! I know what I have to do these holidays!

• Fricken finish my logbooks and practice the dances! Because I barely know the steps LMAO!


• Englis assesment


• Practice songs


• MAKE NOTES (music & business)


• Do dance homework

Seriously! the first week is gone! I think I shall go library every day next week! Stuff staying home! Anyway! I have to get ready to go out to lunch with my bro'z ex wife WOOHOO! Need to ask her if she'll come formal shopping with me! That would be GREAT! My brother gave me the idea!

Wish I could go Claymore this holiday and say goodbye to my sister!

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Hello

I sit and wonder what the hell happened! Its hard. Shit happens I guess! What can you do? Leave it and move on! << What I always say! MOVE ON! Why does moving on require so much effort! I know my only source of help! My own secret source of help! Well, its not THAT much of a secret any more. I exposed it to two of my closest friends! Problem is! I have SIX Close friends. One of them? Pretty eager beaver to know whats the go! I have a problem though! A feel of regret! See this secret isnt THAT big when you think about it. But to ME? Its really HUGE! REALLY BIG! Probably the most immature thing. Secrets! reminds me of primary! But this one? I'm real sensitive about! Its one I like to hold close to my brain! I'm pretty open person! If you read my blogs LOL I blog about pretty much EVERYTHING! But this? This, I know I'm blogging about now! But yous dont know what the hell Im blogging about! Clues? They speak for themselves! I wont point them out! Like I said, when I'm ready, shall reveal all! Till then! You can hold onto your undies!

I die to scream it out! Tell everyone! Then what will happen? Either, dissapointment or joy! My guess is dissapointment!

I really liked the fact no one knew! If I was in a cartoon I would kill those who knew about it! Wether they swear or not, not to tell. BUT. I'm not in a cartoon, as a cold hearted character. Instead, I'm in THIS world as a human being! WOOHOO..

The past was good, the future shall be better. The present....I use to actually think present as in a gift LOL! was always dissapointed though! LMAO! I use to think that tooth fairy was real, and that they brought you whatever you wished for! I'll never forget this one time when I lost my tooth and I put it under the pillow and that night I wished pretty much a million times for a pair of roller skates. I asked my mum if the tooth fairy is gonna give me what I want. She said Yes! What a cow aye? Full got my hopes up and everything! I excitedly went to bed, imagining the tooth fairy and wondering how she would carry a pair of roller skates because of her size LOL!

LOLOL story of my life! AND OML I will never forget when I first new how to count by 10's! I had a bunch of 10 cent coins, and I counted "10, 20, 30, 40, 50, 60, 70, 80, 90, A HUNDRED, OMGOSH MUM LOOK I GOT A HUNDRED DOLLARS" My mum was such a cow she looked at me uninterested and just said "MMM" and continued to watch TV. Man the things that were running through my mind. I was full thinking I could buy a TV, with VCR and EVERYTHING! LMAO! LOLLIES! HAHAHA!!

Funny stuff. Anyway! I have an early day tomorrow! I think I wont get up! I'll meet my mum up later!I'm going to get my good sleep!

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Let the holiday boredom BEGIN

What to blog....

Lets see, HMMM how about my day.

Woke up suprisingly early! I went to sleep at like 1 or 2 in the morning, and for some reason gotup at like 8:30! Like WOAH! Anyway! I layed in bed contemplating on things! Till about 10 I got up, headed for the showers. Suprised my dad didnt tell me off. He has something against me with showering, like its a crime. If I shower early in the morning he'll be like WHY DO YOU SHOWER SO EARLY YOUR GONNA GET SICK. OR YOU ALREADY HAD A SHOWER LAST NIGHT WHY DO YOU NEED ANOTHER ONE! LMAO! and so on....anyway I made my dad breakfast and ate. I washed the dishes after and was walking around the house like a bored kid. I knew I had to do some work but I needed to get out of thehouse as well! I was bored! Needed to get out! So I got ready and packed my shit and took off to the library for a days work!

Man on my way I bumped into Floral Caroline and Fiona! They were on their way to the movies to watch Harry Potter! So I got to the library right? An yeh from then on I was bored off my brains! I couldnt bring my self to do my work! Like I would sit there and right two sentences and then sit there and think of how bored I was and how much I didnt want to do my work! Well I forced myself to stay there till 3! I got there at like 12-ish towards 2 I started getting motivation from no where! I literally had my pen imprinted into my thumb and index finger! I was gonna take a photo but though its a bit creepy taking a pikture of my finger! LMAO!

Anyway I got interupted quite abit with my dad calling, my brother calling as well, and Channy texting! And facebook on my phone! LMAO! Anyway 3:00 FINALLY came and I left! I rang up my mum in claymore, my brother Benny picked up I WAS LIKE OML HAVENT SPOKEN TO YOU IN AGES...and he was like OMGOSH SIS I MISS YOU TOO! Yeah spoke about family and his UGLLY GIRLFRIEND! His gonna bring her down for me to meet YAYY! SO NOT EXCITED! GEES! I'll SHANK HER!! right anyway my brother was stoned LMAO!! He tried to hide it, but too gone aye! LOLOL! MISS HIM MUCH! Then I spoke with my mum about important business! Its to do with my little sister up in America! Man my mums not happy, upset and asking me for help! You know what? Whenever my parents have problems with my siblings, they turn to me! I wonder why. Like come on you would ask yourself the same question if your parents could ask your other 16 brothers and sister, but dont! They ask you! Feel speacial but, I dont know! I dont want to get involved! It might cause chaos! BLOODY HELL! Why didnt they just keep all their babies instead of...ONE FOR YOU ONE FOR YU OH AND ONE FOR YOU AS WELL...Like seriously! Anyway! She's my mum, so I will do anything to help her out! But then Im doing it behind my other mums back! Like how the hell does that work! Man! shuxx.....

anyway! After speaking to my upset mother I seen my cousin with my aunty at th bus stop in front of Neeta City! My cousin wants me to visit! I think I shall tomorrow! Whichc reminds me. I'm meeting up with my brothers ex wife tomorrow as well. BRO Last time I seen her, I think I was in year 4 or 3??? Now Im in year 12! CANT WAIT!! She was the bomb FOR REAL! and stll consider her to be my sister...at soul though ;)

\Anyway bought makkas and came home! WALLAH story of my life! My nails look handicap all from the guitar!OML I forgot to mention I felt so lonely at the library! But it was good. NO DISTRACTIONS! Accept people! Like I look at people and judge em. HEY! I get bored alright! LOL!! Anyway! Myhands are cold! Gotta look for a related text for english! EXCITING STUFF!

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Come on over

Its cold and exactly 1:31am

I've been speaking to my sister Nancy! She's married got 4 BEAUTIFUL kids which are my 4 precious nieces and nephews. She told me shes moving to Brisbane next month to join my other sister who is also married with baby coming! EXCITING!

Anyway! My sister decided to tell me about my little brother Benny. My closest of my siblings! My so called bestfriend which I am lucky to actually be his sister! HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND! Now! I dont mind that he has a girlfriend! Bro Ive even hooked him up before! BUT! This particular girl! See my sister said that she seems slutty! And that she dont trust her. Now if my sister hadnt said that! I would be seriously ALL SWEET! But the fact that my sister said that about his girl! Its like I cant help but feel the EXACT same way without even meeting her!My brother told my sister that his girl went brisbane and didnt call him or answer his calls! Now if I think about it! There is only ONE reason why shouldnt call him or answer his calls! Like COME ON!! EVERYONE knows theres mean as hotties up in Brisbane.

Benny wants me to meet his girl! He wants to bring her down here. He wants to friken bring her down here!! :O FUCK I forget her name koz I am SO asking aroung! Modesity! THATS IT! pretty name aye! Pretty face? Dont know dont care! Id rather her be really nice! I dont know I dont want my brother getting hurt! His a good guy! His odd. His not those stuck up fobs hat cheat and think they're all that! I mean when it comes to fighting and stuff he is the typical hard cunt! But boyfriend wise? His GOOD! And if she takes that for granted I will seriously HURT HER! You ont understand! I mean you could if you had a little brother! My little brother aint really little LMAO!! His WAYYY Taller then me! And only a year younger! NOT EVEN!! his actually 10 months younger!! I cant help but feel like its my duty to kill her if she hurts him! But I gotta remember that he as to go through this sorta stuff koz we all do. NAH FUCK THAT! ILL SMASH HER HEAD IN! Gosh I know I sound like the BIGEST HARD BITCH!! I dont like soundin like that! ut HONESTLY!! In a circumstance like this! I will SMASH HER! BASH HER HEAD IN!! KNEE THE FUCK OUT OF HER FACE! Make sure I hurt my own knuckles just from punching her face in. Anyway! Im getting tired! But I wish my sister never told me about his girlfriend before I met her! Koz now when I meet her. Itwont be such a friendly hello! If I dont like her...ARRGGGHHH I should think of my little brother who is apparently INLOVE!! FUCK!! WHYYY??? =( Brothers feelings come first to me! I shall TRY to keep that in mind!

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Not much time

I dont have much to talk about which is good koz I dont have much time!

OML right now I am so excited! Thanks to Milly! I love your balls Milly I really do! LMAO!

Cleaned up FINALLY!! not FULLY!! But everything is off the floor and clothes neatly tucked away in draws and cupboards!

ANYWAY!! Went to shops in Guildford! And I bought timtams and personal items! WOAH! they were on sale I was Like YIIIIAAAAHHHHH

Anyway! Gotta do stupid English assessment!

I wonder about you alot!

OML I had the randomest dream last night

Vita was in it *rolls eyes* So was Nat my cousins peeps from church! WEIRD! CBF typin it up Gotta get started on english! Maybe not! Its almost 12!

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CBF to the max

WHY?

Well I should be cleaning my room! ButI swear I will! I will seriously clean up my room but there is something on my mind =)

See when girls go out with guys, why do guys always cheat? Its a ALWAYS! well its SO common! I mean can someone please tell me why guys LOVE their girls but LOVE to cheat on them as well! Or thay can help it OR SOME BULL CRAP like that? Like seriously I dont get it! I dont know but I'm going to speak for myself ladies! BUT! I dont get it really. I dont understand the minds of MEN! I dont UNDERSTAND!! Like seriously I know yous arent all the same! But yous have one thing in common. Yous cant stay faithful! PLEASE SOME MOTHER FUCKER OUT THERE PROVE ME WRONG IF YOU DONT RECKON IM RIGHT! I mean! This is what I know.

Apparently its hard for guys not to look at other girls...well for me? THATS FINE! Koz I cant help but look at other guys either =P LOL But apparently its hard not to touch want they like....if you get what I mean, like if they're physically attracted, its hard not to wanna really tap it! LMAO! But I dont know for me? When Im going out with a guy it stops me from wanting any other guy! Like OKAY I will totally go looking at other guys! REGUARDLESS Like when with my girls and stuff, But I would seriously not touch!! But for guys, its like, they cant help it! And I hate how SOME girls can be so fricken SLUTTY! I mean I cant really talk! Fuck Im not a slut.

But what I mean is that. When a guy is taken, girls will still hit on your man. Its Like FUCK OFF!!! But yeah anyway! In my case? I wont hit on a guy if they're taken, but if the guy starts hitting on me? and I feel the same way? I wouldnt give a shit about his girl! I know its mean. And that I wouldnt like it, but I cant help it. I seriously just DONT GIVE A FLYING FUCK!!

Hypocritical?
YES!

Caring?
NO!

Well with ALL my experiences with guys they've all been a MAJOR PISS OFF!! They all just really piss me off! But then I cant get enough of them? Like how does that work?
I HAVE NO CLUE!
LMAO!
life goes on NIGGA! you move on...this is my place to shake it off ;)

Guys always say there is always that ONE girl that changes you! I'd like to see that! Well actually I have! I sit nd wonder how the fuck our parents meet and fall inlove BLAH BLAH! Like how the hell it works! I wish I knew! Experiencing new experiences is FUN. But when the whole womens intuition kicks in and tells you somethings wrong! Its kills it! You dont wanna believe it so the girl stays in denial for...how ever long it takes her to realise how dumb she is! I dont know! I havent had enough heart break though. Still got more to go...BRING IT ON! Koz Im ready for it ;) I guess it makes you a better person in a way! If you dont wollow in it I mean!....Wollowing, guys tend to do that alot! not for a long time, I mean as much as girls do but I noticed it off my bros! Or maybe thats just my bro!

But anyway! Some girls are like that too. Cant stay faithful. Break their ugly boyfriends hearts! POOR THINGS!! yeah koz I pitty guys *rolls eyes* I'm sorry, ex boyfriends just make me feel numb to feeling pity for ANY guy! Its good though! I need to toughen up! Koz I'm pretty much sick of being the "nice" girl that I am! Well Im not PERFECT LMAO!! but nice? YES! I'm lost! Fucking girls and their emotions! SERIOUSLY!! Im speaking for myself by the way! LOLOL Im soo tired. I tend to talk alot of shit on this thing! LMAO!! TOO MUCH!

OHHH WELL, thats what I use my blog for! To speak my mind and get it out! TALK SHIT AGAIN! ;)

Anyway! Lets talk about hooking up...I dont get how guys can stick their dicks in any random hole! Like seriously! And girls? ARGGHHHH Im being sexist but..for girls, to me? I wont go there none of my business! LMAO!! I dont give a shit koz yeah Im not LES! Im just talkig about guys that cheat! YOUS ANNOY ME! Dont see how use do it! And the married FUCKWITS too... WTF? Why the fuck would you get down on your knees to your current wife in the first place if your gonna let some other bith get down on her knees and suck your UGLY as....thingy majiggy! LOLOL!

SERIOUSLY! I dont understand! I dont care about the ladies Koz Im just gonna let all the fellas worry about that! LMAO! MOST girls are faithful, as I know! Wait maybe not! LMAO! HAHAHAHA!!! Soryy guys, you might just have as much problems as I do! HAHAHA!! yeah Im abit tired and sphycho! Mainly just tired! SHIT! Gonna clean up my room in the morning I SWEAR!! LMAO!! Not tonight I am seriously just too tired and feel like blogging about absolutely nothing! You know for some odd reason I miss Channy! She hasnt been online that much! Maybe I should jump on and check LOL!

I miss my family. Seriously you guys dont know how much yous take your siblings for granted! They're like a part of you! Like once parted there is always something missing! You can only find it in your siblings! I swear! Like my little brothers! They mean the WORLD to me! I would give up anything for them! Could never picture my life without them! Even though they live far away and I barely see them! Just the thought of them being where they are, and the fact that I know I can go to them and they can come to me. I'm fine with! I can live with it! Memories from when I was younger. It was only me and my three little brothers and my two little sisters. My sisters were babies back then! But me and my two younger brothers had the funniest relationship! My little bro Villy? His the more independant one! WHY? koz sort of like the middle child of when we were young! I was the spoilt lil brat and Benny was the weird kid! Me and Benny were tight! And Villy? Well when I think about it we werent as close! We were in a way! But not really! It was mainly me and Benny! I miss Benny SOOO MUCH!

Me and him are just the BESTEST of friends....BUT actually brother and sister which is a BONUS!!! We are growing up though. The child-hood days are over and the time to grow up and grow apart are drawing nearer with EVERY day! =( It makes me sad =( I have to live my teen years away from my close as brother INCLUDING my other brothers and sister who ALSO mean the WORLD to me! I mean it sucks, it really does!! It really stinks! I wish there was a way I could see them more =( But maybe its for my own good!! I mean if Im with them, they have great influence on me! Like I start being abit tom boy - ish! I noticed it LOL! I actually enjoy being a girl and enjoying the JOY of being FEMALE ;) LMAO! if that makes ANY sense at all!

But I feel as if its meant to be! Why should I fight it? Someone give me a reason to fight fate!...NO REASON? Okay.

I think I might actually be motivated to clean my room right now! I still havent had enough of blogging! Its like I dont know! I have so much that I keep in my mind. Lock it away because it pisses me off gets me upset or some crap!

I dont know if I make a move, or stalk the prey until the right moment to POUNCE ;) maybe it could be too late! But I mean I will never know right? If I dont try! I dont know! Im starting to learn not to hesitate. Hesitation can be good? But BAD all at the same time! How it works? Im still trying to figure out!

I dont know if its too late! But I shall give it a try!

I think Ive had enough!.....sorry if I bore you...NOT!! not my problem!! Shouldntve read in the first place =p AHHH SUCKKKKAAAHHHH!!! ;)

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TAKE TWO!!

I have a plan! Im going to take my usb and put it away! And not touch it tomrrow! TOMORROW! is for school!

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Can't help fallin inlove

OML My tittle? I dont know why but I like sayin why I gave my tittle its name! Well, Its because today I had this moment, with a wallet. It was seriously love at first sight =( But it was $30 and I only had just abit over $25. IF ONLY I HAD SEEN IT BEFORE I HAD BOUGHT STUFF ALREADY =( I swear I am saving up to buy that wallet! I just need $10 And the wallet is mine. Seriously Im going to get it! Even if I have to go to Parra and just go to that shop and buy it! Hopefully a shop in Fairfield has it, koz like Parra's just too big! I swear I officially hate shopping in parra! Its TOO BIG! TOO TOO TOO TOO BIG!

Anyway! It ended up just bein Milly and I hence why we went to parra instead of the city! Anyway! Im really hungry! I wanted to blog before but had alot of shit to talk about with the girls, still need to inform Moey. and Floral! Wonder if that cow willl ring tonight! I need to talk to her aye =)

Anyway, what did I buy? I went with $100 and got home with less then $1. I bought

• $15 a bag
• $24 a top
• $20 a hat
• $14 something else...
• $3.20?? Ticket
• I bought cream and this other thing cant memeber how much umm under $10
• and Makkas and ice cream and mints and thats it!

Dont try to calculate up to $100 koz I cant really remember how much EVERYTHING was.

Anyway! I am hungry!

Oh and what I was bloging about earlier on...about my mate and how he thinks all fobs are the same! Like I dont know but the way he describes fobs sometimes. like its just really different to the kind of fobs that I know! I think its just the islanders that live in his area aye! I never realised how different they can be according to the area in which they live in! But I think! that you cant judge a particular individual on their race, or even where they come from! I mean you could! But its unfair! Also to me is in a way Discriminating. Okai so my mate of mine, this is what he thinks fobs are like, I seriously look at it and try really hard to think of people that fit into that category!This is what my mate thinks of islanders, NO OFFENCE TO YOU FOBS ALRIGHT but Im a fob too so just GO HOME =P.
a typical fob would be one that drinks, almost alot.
also smokes.
But what I noticed is that alot of fobs do like to sorta talk themselves up.. like the stories would be alot of bs to make them seem cooler and that. And also likes to sorta be like the 'man'. Like.. if someone even mocks them a lil bit... they immediately wanna fight because they want to prove that they're not a bitch, you know?

Now see? These are the gangster WANNABES! and I think every Nasho has these guys! But even girls are like this! But I can totally relate to this LMAO! I meant girls.

I always seem to surprise him when I tell him certain things about him...He tends to think I'm different compared to other Islander girls. But thing is the way he describes the islander girls that he knows, is like...WEIRD. I sit there and try to think of girls that are like that! Example, fob girls like sex in the relationship, it cant just be, your my man and I want to take it slow. It has to be, your my man and and you gotta do what a man gotta do ;) =P HHAHAHAHA. Sorry if I make what my mate says sound worst! But I just remembered the convo we had and it was just! I was trying to think of a girl that I know that does that! I dont know! None of my cousins are REALLY like that! I dont know Im not bothered anymore! SHUXX!! this blog is getting ridiculously long and taking too long and too much brains to type up! Like as Im typing Im forgeting what my point is. Do you see what my point is? Or is it just word vomit? Anyway! My this is EXCATLY what my mate thinks of islanders:

I mean... I reckon most island girls are hot, and then you get the big ones too lols.
But I think yerr, island girls get into the whole sex thing.. but they do it kinda weird? Like they're not really allowed to go out much (most of them) so.. when the sex thing comes along.. its uusally at the park and stuffs when they have a drink up lols.
And I cant think of any other cultures cept islanders that drink at the park lmao.

I'm not bothered! But can I just say that THANFULLY none of my friends are like that! PLUS my mates are asian and latin, and us islanders? We're lazy, nerdy, and ARENT like this! My family? a different story! Some are like that =( Embaressing? YES!

Anyway! he also LOVES FOBS like ME =P

Buttt....
theres alot of variety though.
Thers some easy breezy dudes.. then thers those quick tempered ones.
BUT at the same time..
There's also a lot of GOOD fobs, too, youknow?
Like I know in most churches there's a few good ones, as in the ones that are truly humble and that.
And that's what I love. The good fobs.
Most islanders tend to be friendly types, as in they're easy to start a convo with.. But still there's alot of undercover hate.. and yer.

What a judgmental dude aye =P

But sometimes I cant help it! I think appearance is one major thing that I cant help but judge! Seriously I AM THE WORST! If you look ugly? Like to me? I will tell who ever is next to me that your ugly! BITCH I know! Example, I meet up with my little brothers and they ontroduce me to their friends? When their friends go, I will tell my brothers what I think o their friends wether they want to hear it or not! I tell my brothers pretty much EVERYTHING!!! Well I do have limitis lol I wouldnt give them details of a hookup or anything koz..they would want to bash the guy! LOL!

I miss my brothers

Im not bothered, I dont think my point is clear. Wish I could just think it and it would come up on screen and everything!

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Freedom At Last!

OMGOSH! I have to say this. I thought WRONG! I can't believe how much of a chicken brain it was! It felt good when it hit me! I can finally LET GO guys =) OML! Seriously! I wanted to jump a joy!Both me AND Kathy! =) HAHA. Wow. I am extra excited today!

BUT I'm going to try to stay away from fellas now. I think I'm emotionally exhausted! HAHAHAHA!! ;) But how can I resist? Boys are fun LMAO! No matter WHAT happens! LMFAO! I still cant believe last night! And Im so happy! But I went off for the first time over NOTHING! Like how DUMB! YIIAAAHHH Looks like a nice day today so far.!

I hope my mum gives me alot of money! Koz I wanna go shopping HARD OUT! I dont JUST wanna watch a movie and eat. I dont even know if we're still gonna watch a movie or WHATS happening!

Anyway! Kathy! I'm so glad you were on last night =) AHHHH Love you ABO! hahahaha

Fuck, hahhahaha I still cant believe last night! Seriously! Weird thing is Im not embaressed by it. I mean you would expect to be embaressed but, I dont know IM NOT!!! BONUS!!! ;)

Anyway! It nw means I can focus more on school and on that certain someone. LMAO OR maybe NOT! hahahaha! I'm SO HAPPY PEOPLE! LMFAO!! someone touch me ;) LMFAO!
SHIT I dont know what to wear today! I shall ring Nat later! Farrrr Anyway! after I found out I was completely wrong! I sighed and started smiling! and then the smile turned into a LAUGH! of excitement! Im so HAPPY! and sorry to Vita LMAO!

Anyway! I'm going to browse the net abit! And then think of what to wear! Shall blog later with piks from the city!

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TAKE TWO

Things I wil do when I get back from the city

• Practice dance
• Clean up my room
• Do logbooks
• attempt study notes

So, I dont know wh it is, but my mate? He sees fobs from a REAL different view to me. I dont know wether its just the fobs that WE know! GEES anyway! Farrr I really wanna finish blogging this but I got to getready koz I leave in an hour! YES it akes me an hour to get ready koz I SERIOUSLY take my sweet ass time! OML! I got 50 from my mum 50 from my dad! SHOPPING HERE I COME!! LOVE LIFE!! IM SOO HAPPY TODAY!! YIIIAAAHHH seriously someone touch me;) HAHAHAHAH

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Sexx Me

No worry about the tittle, LOL its just when I have random tittles it means its the name of the song that I'm listening to!

Anyway! I got up, and went to school for music practice! It was pretty good! Anyway! I dont really feel like Blogging! But then I do! LOLOL!
I was in my own world most the time as usual! GOSH I should really snap out of it! Fricken gotta get cracking with practicing my dances! I need to build up endurance and strength to control my movement and not wobble! Farrrr LOLOL!!

I have less then 3 weeks to do this! I was gonna start today, but Im still relly sore from Yesterday! Walking in heels! Anyway! Cant wait for tomorrow! Should be fun! Going city!

Anyway! No matter what tomorrow when Iget back from City I will definitely practice! Outside! BLAH BLAH!

Anway! I gotta get some studyng happening!

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TAKE TWO!

I really have to wake up and smell the HSC! LMFAO!! STUDY should be my number one lover right now! and His NOT =(

Anyway! I just came on to waste my time. Seriously! I dont know who is more confused. Me or Him? Is he even confused? Does he think about the situation as much as I do? ANYWAY! I dont know! I really dont! Im such a lost child!

LOLOL well city tomorrow =)

Anyway! I think I should start spending my days at the library! There is no distraction there! Its much better! I dont know! Vita gave me the idea!

Anyway! Moe told me he posted a blog! So I shall check that out! And spend the rest of th night doing logbooks or making study notes!!!

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Parshly Aced

Just like my spelling, this song is partially aced! I still get abit confused abit with the chords. And AGAIN sorta blough with the words.

LOLOL

I think I like posting vids on here. Not youtube, well at least vids of me singing! LOLOL

Anyway! Enjoy Tribute to Michael. ;) We did this song for assembly too!

Sunday morning, is still coming along! Havent aced it YET! But getting there!

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Mentally, Physicaly, Emotionaly tired!

Well church was AWESOME! not....it was JUST what I expected. Too long and BORING! Man My thighs, ass are killing! Results from standing around and walking in high as heels. I really need to buy flats!

HIGHLIGHT of the day.
I bumped into Malia! Listened to stories Leka was telling! Chatted away with my cousin! Spent the whole day with her...Something I havent done in a VERY long time! Another MAJOR HIGHLIGHT was when I seen Big Momma =) I was SOO HAPPY! I hadnt seen her in FOREVER! Just way too long!
One highlight that I SHOULD be listing, didnt happen =/ Surprisingly, Im not angry!Or dissapointed, maybe just abit dissapointed but yeah... oh well. LOL

Anyway! I'm so tired! I think because I didnt eat all day until I got home! SERIOUSLY I ate at around 8 this morning! and didnt eat till about 8-9 tonight! I dont know I wasnt hungry! WEIRD! Im ALWAYS hungry LOL! But yeah need to keep my weight up, koz I want it up there well just where its at at least 70kg love it ;)

Ummm anyway I have to say a BIG HUGE HUMUNGOUS GIGANTIC ENORMOUS MARVELOUS THANK YOU to my buddy AMI/MOE!!
Thanks for being there for me buddy! When ever I need you, you there, need someone to talk to , your there, need someone to PMS at? YOUR THERE =P Love you Moey BIG TIME! and Thanks AGAIN!

I'm so dead right now! But I still cant help but blog! Tomorrow got music! Farrr

anyway! maybe Ill bump into a certain someone at fairfield ;) LOLOL HAAHHA

I've been trying to get t Floral! So Ima try again!

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Sunday Morning, Rains NOT falling!

Well last night? I spoke to Vita like over the phone for the first time ever since, ages ago LOL. It was good to hear from him, I dont know, but I always use to think I was the weird one out of us two. Turns out I was WRONG! I guess he was just hapy kid =P

Anyway! Church today...wooo...yayyyyy....SOO excited =/ well I guess I get to look forward to seeing Vita, but other then that? I wish I wasnt going! =(

Umm I had a weird dream aye. LOLOL I dreamt that I walked into Big Mammas house and My friends were there LMAO! Nat and Sophie were there, and they were DRUNK off their faces man. Nat was conked out on the sofa and sophie was starting to strip to music. I know WEIRD! and then the scene changed. I was in my room, in my old house! And I had a bottle of, I cant remember, but I had a bottle of I think Black label! I THINK....bro is that even a drink? as you can see, Im not much of a drinker LOL! Well yeah I drank abit of it, and went out, I came back home to find the bottle almost finished! I had stupidly left it out in the open. Luckilyt was only my brother at home! But yeah he drank it, I didn mind as long as h didnt tell the rents! Anyway! I had come back him with two bottles of VB, and Burboun Cola. I was planning on getting drunk in my room, all by my self! And I woke up! LOL

Anyway! See I've been practicing "Sunday Morning" not for anything though, just for he simple fact of playing and singing it. I dont know I have this thing, where when I learn a new song I have to keep practicing until I ace it. I still havent aced it though. Its a work in progress. I even recorded it for you guys! So here you go.

WARNING, off time, and I bloughed abit because I dont FULLY know how it goes!

Anyway! I took yesterday off and Im taking today off. But tomorow? I have a mean as jam session with my music class and Thwaites at school! Then I shall come home and do at LEAST four hours! Gotta kee my hours of study up there! My brains gonna hurt FOR REAL!

Then Tuesday! Day out with the girls!

I decided that I will go with the girls instead! I'm too scared to ask to chill with my fams =( A NO will kill me! I dont wanna lie anymore though! Lying and sneaking? Ive sorta had enough!

Anyway! I have to eat get ready BLA BLAH!....

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LOLOL shame my vids not even processed yet! Farrr take your sweet ASS time! GEES!

This is really bad, from one guy to another! LITERALLY! like wth? Who do you choose? The one that comes after you first? arghhh...no worries! How about NONE!

OML I have one thing to say! WHY WONT THIS SHIT VIDEO HURRY UP!!!!

hate charging my phone! Wish it would grow legs and charge itself! Like seriously! When it batteries low I just wish it would get up and find my charger and hook itself up! LOLOL

That is all (videos processed) =)

It is official

Well last night, I just realised that he knew it was really over, he knew that I had already let go! I was suprised and GLAD LOL. I think he will leave me alone now! =) Snooping gives you alot of info ;) Love it.

Anyway! I woke up this morning and wanted to go somewhere! But nah I dont think so no more! I'm going to ring up my brothers to see what movie they wanna watch so I can see what day I shall chill out with my family! CANT WAIT! =) I havent seen my family ever since the last holidays! So it shall be good! I wouldnt mind if we went shopping after it at Macarthur Square!. MMM love shopping there, although I dont really know my way around! LOLOL. Sometimes I think even my brother blufs his way around! LOL

Anyway! The holidays are official as well. I shall enjoy this relaxing, and chilling with my babe "study". HSC! GOSH im not even gonna talk about it!

Anyway! Plans for today?

ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN!

Gonna eat soon! Maybe today is a great day to clean my messy room! LOLOL Anyway! I might ring my brothers now! See if they're home! Or even awake! LOLOL Shall blog again later!

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TAKE TWO

I watched TV for a little over 6 hours straight. Theequivalent amount of time I spend at school! MAN my eyes were loving it aye! HAHA! Well anyway! I watched "Next" and it made me think what kind of guy I would want to date!

WELL

Okay, so appearance wise?
Tall, any form of build to a certain extent meaning I dont wanna date a HUGE as dude. Sounds shallow I know, but as I said yesterday denial is pain, truth is my friend =P Well actually that gay guy that watched on youtube said it! Anyway! and not thin like a pair of chop sticks! I dont mind slim, meaty or built! Not picky in that area I guess (to a certain extent). Did I mention tall? Like I'm a tall girl, I like my guys taller than me. Although I dont mind a tad shorter or my height! But I just prefer the tall dudes ;) OML I go crazy over muscly thighs! LMAO! dont ask! I dont know why either! LMAO! UMM and yeah thats pretty much it appearance wise. Oh wait Im not picky with how they dress and so on.

Personality wise?
I like my guys interesting, like you could say weird in a sense! Mysterious, always got me guessing? =) i like! Overall nice, not FULL ON like NICE! But yeah just generally! UMM I dont mind whether they're noisy or quiet! again, only to a certain extent! I mean you can be quiet, but still gotta be talkative in a way! Noisy, but not "I WANT EVERYONES ATTENTION" noisy! LOLOL Yeah and the normal bullshit thats hard to find ;)

Anyway! My standards aren't very high. But I guess they've changed though, and probably will continue to. I dont have any certain nationality though! LOLOL I like all! White balck yellow ORANGE =P Nah SHAME hahaha!

Anyway! What else did I watch?
I watched two movies, and other shows. And now I'm just blogging it! Gees We're going to church tomorow. See I like going church! I just hate church combines. For starters! Its all the way in china, and takes over half an hour to get there! We get there and people stare. The guys are ugly there, like it would be more interesting to go if they had a bit more eye candy! But they dont SOOO....yeah!
Anyway when ever there is a combine, it means that church may go on forever! I also dont like going there because I know some of the ladies there are the biggest back stabbers! And they cross me? I wont be scared to take action! I dont give a shit who they are, how much older they are then me, or anything! They just better stay out of my way! LOLOL gees I sound like those hard cunts, let me rephrase. UMMM......They just better not try to be all up there if you get what I mean! I mean I aint up there but neither are they so as far as Im concerned they can suck their husbands balls!
Anyway! Speaking of church, Church goes on for too long when its combines and its hard to pay attention. Because when the preacher starts preaching, they start using formal tongan language which I dont really understand! So yeah...sorta just sit there and day dream! I gotta go tonga man, my tongans really bad. Bro can you believe that when I started school I didnt know how to speak english? LMAO! And now I cant speak Tongan! JUST GREAT! gotta find some sorta balance!

Anyway! I was going to cll my family up in claymore! But for some reason I felt weird! I dont know what it is! I think its just weird how I plan on telling the truth. Actually Im really scared of telling my parents that Im going to visit my family up in claymore! Im scared they'll say no! And Seriously I'm sick of getting no! WHY THE FUCK WOULDNT YOU LET A KID SEE THEIR OWN FAMILY YOU STUPID DUMB FUCKS!
piss me off! Every day I try to ignore this! It's easy to ignore it. But when it comes to being able to see my family the problems just re-occur!

Say for example. I ask if I can go sleep over my MUM AND DADS HOUSE spend time with my siblings you know? You know what answer I got from these parents? You know we dont want yo to change. Your going to go there and come back different because they will let you do what ever!
FUCK IT i dont wanna talk about this shit its pissing me off! FUCK!

yeah friken gotta cool it right now man! SMOKE WOULD BE THE BEST MEDICINE RIGHT NOW! Seriously I dont give a shit! Shit I sound like a depressed kid LMAO! Ima just shutup now and talk about...nothing.....

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TAKE THREE

I'm really tired, and was COMPLETELY wrong this morning! About how I had let go and how he would leave me alone!

Im tired! and dought he will call!! I dont know why but I didnt show how angry I really am at him!

I'm tired ima hit the hay!

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What's up?

Well to behonest, for some reason I'm not dissapointed! For some reason, I know it aint the end ;) Anyway! I know its hard to approach, do I make it easy? NO NOT AT ALL!! LOLOL Once you do, everything gets easier LOLOL





Well my day? AWESOME! We got our jerseys today! And I love it! Anyway! Its holidays. Dont think I'll be chilling with mygirls these holidays! Mainly because I havent seen much of my family! So will spen the next few days with family and my dear boyfriend named 'STUDY' He will have my FULL TIME attention and lovin ;) BAHAHAA





The past is now behind, it shall stay there, and never again do I want to go back there! Moving on is BEAUTIFUL just like....just like ummmm my friends! LOLOL





Well, lets see, I'm going to have fun these holidays.





Stay home


Formal shopping


Movies


Cousins house


WATCH TV


STUDY (my full time lover)





Well have a new song that I am obsessed with. "who's lovin you" Jackson 5. The blues is just SEXY! I dig it =)





Everything I blog up on here is personal! LMAO! Maybe I should lay off abit and WAKE UP! koz ANYONE can read it LMAO! HMMMM nehhh I dont care! See the only people that I care for reading this, are people that actually know me! But randoms? I'm all gee. WHY? Because they dont know me, I dont know them!





Anyway! its been two weeks since I cleaned up my room!







Wanna see my jersey? It's just the back of it anyway!







Anyway! I will be blogging later!

And I wonder, who's lovin you....

love it

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It has been two hours since I blogged. What I have done during that time? Bore myself with facebook and twitter. Sometimes I dont know why I sit on facebook and stuff! Logged into mates account on bebo and did abit of snoopin on his page AND mine =) Nothing interesting! Just got emails from youtube =) Time to see what happen.

People were commenting on Milly's status which said that she wished she had a Mango tree. Anyway! Today at school, I was in a dase! Day dreamed throughout the WHOLE day LMAO! Well I just ate ummm mutten.

Well, I decided that these holidays! I will be straight up with the rents and tell them Im visitin my family up in claymore for one day! Instead of lying and saying I have dance practice! Anyway body language apparently says alot. Yeah dont know where I'm going with that!

I maybe wanna watch movies tonight OR bore myself browsing the net! Nothing interesting! Besdides blogging and youtube! But the peeps Im subscribed to havent got no new vids, and i dont really browse vids on youtube, koz CBF!

It is almost 9:30pm. I shall soon set up my dads dialysis!

9:30 now. MIGHT blog again later, who nows! Anyway shall type later

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TAKE THREE.

Well I'm tired! But I just thought to myself! Physical attraction, does it create chemistry? You know when you look into that persons eyes and your instantly mesmorised. What is that? Chemistry? or Physical attraction? Are they the same? You look at them, and its like you cant see anything but them! What is that?

Like you dont really know the person at all. You only know what you see and casually hear, but your chemistry with this person, or vibe is so strong! Is that due to physical attraction? I think it is aye. So what happens when yous speak? I dont know aye. I guess its a story to be continued.

Anyway I was youtubing right? And I came across this gay dudes video of him speaking about "Truth". You know that saying, "Truth hurts"? Well this guy full on challenged the saying. He was saying that the ruh doesnt hurt. It's denial that hurts! And I couldnt agree more! He was saying if truth hurts it doesnt mean to. And I reckon that truth may hurt, but the denial will be much more painful! Like do you get whay Im saying!

Not bothered to continue! I'm getting really sleepy! You know I didnt end up watching movies! I ended up on youtube! LmAO! There was this one guy singing whilst using scissors as a microphone! I totally found that funny! It was funny because the guy looked around about my age or older!

My eyeballs are seriously begging me to give them a rest!

In order to stay on the good side with my boyfriend "Study" My eyes wont be able to rest! Fuck I cnt wait to dump study! It will be the HAPPIEST day of my life! LOLOL!

past would ask "whos lovin you" she would look at future and think "......." confused? GOOD!

anyway! I think I will check my stuff then hit the pillows for some much needed rest for the bludging begins TOMORROW....I love you TOMORROW! I really do! LOLOL

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Women's intuition

Well, Moe FINALLY blogged, but its about Michale Jackson so, I won't be reading! Seriously dont ask why but I dont really like talking about Michael Jackson and I'm a fan of his but yeah its just depressing! =(

ANYWAY! I truly believe in womens intuition! We know what your up to boys =P

LOLOL! I know how you feel, I feel the same! Will you get the balls to talk? Or are you sending the wrong message across! LMAO! (dont ask)

I am so hungus! Anyway! I like dirty sounds! LMAO! I know it sounds weird but I do!
Dirty dancing is the way to go! ;) GRIND love it;)

AHAHA

anyway!

Nothing to talk about really. Nothing is on my mind and there is OML...there IS something to blog about! And I shall blog about it all I like!

Mr.M.......

I overheard his conversation with with another teacher yesterday, while we were on our way to the careers expo. Okai so Floral, Malia Steph Nat and I didnt know that year 12 was suppose to be on the first bus! NO ONE FUCKING TOLD US! Or maybe we werent listening! PFFFTTT suck a fat one! ANYWAY! Well Mr.M.....was like chucking a phycho, and it was all sweet koz yeah we didnt care. BUT Floral right? She on cruches! And the other teacher was like we should leave that seat for her, and Mr.M was like "NO, at our age we should be able to sit" Like WTF YOU HANDICAP? well, generally Floral's the handicap koz she's crippled =P But STILL, ASS HOLE I'm pretty sure you can stand up ate your age too FAGGIT!! and OMGOSH!! We were like sitting on the chair next to them, and all he did was bitch about how we got on the wrong bus! Like OMFUCKING GOODNESS! He was like "I dont understand why people cant follow instructions. MAYBE KOZ YOU DIDNT GIVE INSTRUCTIONS TO START WITH!! ARGGGHHHHH I wanted to grab Florals cruches and give him a GOOD WAK ON THE HEAD! and he was full saying how teens are ignorant and what not, they're all the same! None of them care! He was like "We shouldnt be responsible, we're not dealing with primary kids here, these are young adults" FUCK HIS A BICTH! LITERALLY! His like some old fucking lady that can't get over shit! When shit happens, it happens you shake it off and MOVE THE FUCK ON!

ahhhh, well thats my shake off =)

Oh and another thing!

My music teacher is the BEST honestly his just the BOMB! BUT today he FULLY got on my nerves. Not only mine, might I add! He's the BIGGEST stress head! It's not good stressing before performances! I speak from experience! Anyway! I just wanted to chuck the chair at him so he could stop being such a STRESS FREAK! It happens ALL THE TIME! Maybe with abit more organisation he wont stress so much! LMAO! Its funny though!

Anyway! I think I shall go eat! Wonder what will happen tomorrow! SHIT! I need to dance homework! FUCKING NOT BOTHERD!

Gotta do it though! Friken Im already in holiday mode!

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Take two

My cousin wrote this song and, I'll post up the vid! if I can! LOLOL Its shit koz Sh got interupted and the ending was just a jam session

Anyway the lyrics go ,its my song to someone as well and every single lyric is true! Dont ask who koz NO ONE KNOWS!

Once I saw him hello
beautiful boy
you got nice hair
can I take you back today
koz your so beautiful
just wanna see your face
so we can embrace
boy I need you today
to comfort me in every way
ERSHAYS
please dont think that im dry
to be by your side
ERSHAYS
Tamasi'i fo'ilole (sexy boy)
I really really want you
dont push me away
koz Im here to stay
you know that ill be true
for me and for you
ERSHAYS
Boy I need you today
to comfort me in every way
ERSHAYS
please dont think that im dry
to be by your side
ERSHAYS

Now to figure out how tp post the vid

WOW how GAY is that! you have to wait! processing video is gay!

Anyway! what to say while I am waiting! HMMM....

Nothing so far! Channy finds my blogging interesting!

Im getting tired! But I still need to do my dance homework thats due tomorrow! =S GOSH! anyway! What to do...hmmmm, GOSH I cbf going out these holidays!

But then I dont know! I already told my brothers we'll go movies! I still have to look for a formal dress!

YEY its finish! =)

Toodles

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Take three

Well I'm back...WHY? because Theres an interestin topic I wanna speak about! I was going to save it for tomorrow! But usually when I feel passionate about one thing on a particular time or moment, I wont feel thatpassinate about it he next day. SO I shall blog it out now!

Well friends seem to have agreat infuence on you right? They influence who you are. I dont know if you could EVER be your own person! You get influenced by parents, family, friends, and the media and celebs blah blah, list goes on!

Well anyway thats not what I wanted to talk about! I remember one night a mate of mine was telling me how much he hated being the one thats so serious and caring about things! Well thing I didnt tell him is that I WAS exactly like that! I cared so much about everything! I was serious and FULL ON! But I stopped caring about things, I stopped listening to people, I really dont give a shit no more! Why? Because it hurts to! I'd rather be a cold hearted bitch then to be warm-hearted and treded all over! Thing is, Im not THAT cold hearted! I tend to hide the cold heartedness because sometimes it could just be REALLY cruel and i do believe in that saying "if you dont have anything nice to say, then dont say anything at all" Sometimes I cant help myself though!

I havent done my dance homework! I did abit at lunch today! I guess lunch time studying pays off aye! Anyway after this I shall hit the showers and hit dream land!

I need to pee! Mariah Carey is AWESOME! I love her sounds although they're old school like TO THE MAX! ;)

OH I got texts from Juniour (old best buddy) His not the type that youwould want as a friend! His not trustworthy and I justknow him too well! Kinda like my ol bestie aye! the ONE that loved my exx whilst we weregoing out! WHO DOES THAT?...SHE DOES! LOLOL!! suck on that one bitchass. Keeping the peace people! Oh can I say this I dont like Jessica Qui I think thts her name? Dont really like Christeen either! who else do I not like? UMMM HOLLY OML!! I DO NOT like you Holly! I've tried to put the past behind me! But as soon as I see you! Everything just hits me and makes me wanna snap your neck in! But we're family, and my dad thinks your nice PFFFTTTT GO HOME! Who else??? I think that is it. I dont really like Peni! Hard cunt follower. His humble! But follows the other talk shit hardcunts and now resembles them! Anyway! I need to get some good shuteye! LOLOL! Blogg too much!

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