I had a dream last night! It was whack as here's the parts that I remember. There were these guys living where I was staying...I have no idea where that actually was, it was like this huge as place and it had this massive inside pool. And there were two of these guys. A friend of mine (have no idea who she is though) started hookin up with one of the guys straight away, we were in the pool so I started o flirt with the other guy we started hookin up and shit and then! It was like what? the next day or somethin? and the other guy that my mate was hookin up with and stuff comes up to me and asks for a head job? apparently he heard I do that! LMFAO! HAHA! In my dream I got confused and I looked at the guy that I hooked up with then looked at the mother fucker and told him to fuck off haha. Then they had to leave or something. Oh yeah thats right! I was staying at like some school! Koz there was this kid that came back from his holiday...when I say kid I mean 10 year old lol! He had a little green bed like you know the one for the toddlers??? Yeah well I was sharing my room with this kid! This kid was the biggest smart pants too! I dont mean he was a little shit! I mean like he was smart for his age!

Then I slightly woke up lol and as I was dozing off back to sleep I was starting to dream already lol about some cans of paint on the table but that was it...I had another dream but can not remember!

Anyway I have to go into school today! I so can not bothered! I got band prac...and I wanna borrow some books I really needa start reading! and really need to finish my research on the blues and the beattles. I needa get working on aurelia and for band prac i just wanna practice my two songs! So glad I got my band! I actually like the fact that I didnt have a partner for my first concert prac! Cant wait to see who I get next! SHUXX! Imagin we dont get paired up again! Ill be stuck by myself for the full semester!

Anyway! I better get out of bed! Well not really! I still wanna laze in bed for abit!

LIFE

Lifes taken a completely different turn now, well, ever since I last blogged. I dont even rember when that was, or what I even blogged about! Well UPDATE on my life.

Im staring to settle into uni, making abit of friends, getting to know peers, no longer inlove with ex...i still care but yeah, all ex's care...only I hate mine all at the same time! Got my eye on a hottie ;) moving to NZ though :( SHIT GO! anyway trying to stay focused on uni. Oh I got a job, I start after next week!

Arguing and getting angry as usual. I have issues I think! HAHA! I might just have anger management problems....Or could be just an idiot, what my dad would say! I badly miss my family in Claymore! Im digging school...oh and....fuck, lost my train of thought! Ive lost myself actually. LOL Dont make sense but, its like a journey!

Anyway I just had my mum yell at me, I wonder if shes crying....thats where she falls, I dont have a weakness for her tears! They dont work on me because Ive seen the whole act before, over and over again! Though my dad has ALSO seen the reinactment over, he still falls for it. Im pretty sure I have a much softer heart then he does! But when it comes to her I dont know!

My mums number one. But....Something you will never understand thats for sure! Im not even quite sure if I understand....all I would say is "I dont know how to explain it" Exactly what Im say right now I guess.

Dad can just piss me off all together! I know I dont understand what its like to be a parent...but right now?? IM FRIKEN ABIT CONFUSED! with what??? I wouldnt have a fuckin clue! I guess this is a momentary thing! In an hour I will snap back into reality! LOL Im not high or anything! Im just loss! I cant wait to gt out of here. Staying home for long periods of time drive me insane!

I literally didnt do anything other than watch movie after movie! I know for a fact Im calling it an early night tonight. Its like! I dont wanna talk to my parents! They say for me never to hesitate in telling them stuff, but, they dont see how hard they make it. They're just as ignorant as I am! I mention a guy, they shrug me off...what do they think this is. They cant just shrug me off and think im gonna stop dating or flirting or being an idiot! SHIT nigga I shall continue like the stubborn...nah wait, over board! Its nothing like that LOL! I think Im snapping back into reality already!

This blog made no sense...because I wasnt using sense! Does that make sense?? Ima go eat dinner soon! Wonder if Ill get told off...I think my mum was crying! YEP that means Im so gonna cop a lecture! I mean how do I tell them I care but the care is burried all the way in china! Im bad showing emotions, like affection, unless it to a boy ;) Even then I have problems! Im not an affectionate person! I mean I think I can be, but I aint really!

That is all