It is official

Well last night, I just realised that he knew it was really over, he knew that I had already let go! I was suprised and GLAD LOL. I think he will leave me alone now! =) Snooping gives you alot of info ;) Love it.

Anyway! I woke up this morning and wanted to go somewhere! But nah I dont think so no more! I'm going to ring up my brothers to see what movie they wanna watch so I can see what day I shall chill out with my family! CANT WAIT! =) I havent seen my family ever since the last holidays! So it shall be good! I wouldnt mind if we went shopping after it at Macarthur Square!. MMM love shopping there, although I dont really know my way around! LOLOL. Sometimes I think even my brother blufs his way around! LOL

Anyway! The holidays are official as well. I shall enjoy this relaxing, and chilling with my babe "study". HSC! GOSH im not even gonna talk about it!

Anyway! Plans for today?

ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN!

Gonna eat soon! Maybe today is a great day to clean my messy room! LOLOL Anyway! I might ring my brothers now! See if they're home! Or even awake! LOLOL Shall blog again later!

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TAKE TWO

I watched TV for a little over 6 hours straight. Theequivalent amount of time I spend at school! MAN my eyes were loving it aye! HAHA! Well anyway! I watched "Next" and it made me think what kind of guy I would want to date!

WELL

Okay, so appearance wise?
Tall, any form of build to a certain extent meaning I dont wanna date a HUGE as dude. Sounds shallow I know, but as I said yesterday denial is pain, truth is my friend =P Well actually that gay guy that watched on youtube said it! Anyway! and not thin like a pair of chop sticks! I dont mind slim, meaty or built! Not picky in that area I guess (to a certain extent). Did I mention tall? Like I'm a tall girl, I like my guys taller than me. Although I dont mind a tad shorter or my height! But I just prefer the tall dudes ;) OML I go crazy over muscly thighs! LMAO! dont ask! I dont know why either! LMAO! UMM and yeah thats pretty much it appearance wise. Oh wait Im not picky with how they dress and so on.

Personality wise?
I like my guys interesting, like you could say weird in a sense! Mysterious, always got me guessing? =) i like! Overall nice, not FULL ON like NICE! But yeah just generally! UMM I dont mind whether they're noisy or quiet! again, only to a certain extent! I mean you can be quiet, but still gotta be talkative in a way! Noisy, but not "I WANT EVERYONES ATTENTION" noisy! LOLOL Yeah and the normal bullshit thats hard to find ;)

Anyway! My standards aren't very high. But I guess they've changed though, and probably will continue to. I dont have any certain nationality though! LOLOL I like all! White balck yellow ORANGE =P Nah SHAME hahaha!

Anyway! What else did I watch?
I watched two movies, and other shows. And now I'm just blogging it! Gees We're going to church tomorow. See I like going church! I just hate church combines. For starters! Its all the way in china, and takes over half an hour to get there! We get there and people stare. The guys are ugly there, like it would be more interesting to go if they had a bit more eye candy! But they dont SOOO....yeah!
Anyway when ever there is a combine, it means that church may go on forever! I also dont like going there because I know some of the ladies there are the biggest back stabbers! And they cross me? I wont be scared to take action! I dont give a shit who they are, how much older they are then me, or anything! They just better stay out of my way! LOLOL gees I sound like those hard cunts, let me rephrase. UMMM......They just better not try to be all up there if you get what I mean! I mean I aint up there but neither are they so as far as Im concerned they can suck their husbands balls!
Anyway! Speaking of church, Church goes on for too long when its combines and its hard to pay attention. Because when the preacher starts preaching, they start using formal tongan language which I dont really understand! So yeah...sorta just sit there and day dream! I gotta go tonga man, my tongans really bad. Bro can you believe that when I started school I didnt know how to speak english? LMAO! And now I cant speak Tongan! JUST GREAT! gotta find some sorta balance!

Anyway! I was going to cll my family up in claymore! But for some reason I felt weird! I dont know what it is! I think its just weird how I plan on telling the truth. Actually Im really scared of telling my parents that Im going to visit my family up in claymore! Im scared they'll say no! And Seriously I'm sick of getting no! WHY THE FUCK WOULDNT YOU LET A KID SEE THEIR OWN FAMILY YOU STUPID DUMB FUCKS!
piss me off! Every day I try to ignore this! It's easy to ignore it. But when it comes to being able to see my family the problems just re-occur!

Say for example. I ask if I can go sleep over my MUM AND DADS HOUSE spend time with my siblings you know? You know what answer I got from these parents? You know we dont want yo to change. Your going to go there and come back different because they will let you do what ever!
FUCK IT i dont wanna talk about this shit its pissing me off! FUCK!

yeah friken gotta cool it right now man! SMOKE WOULD BE THE BEST MEDICINE RIGHT NOW! Seriously I dont give a shit! Shit I sound like a depressed kid LMAO! Ima just shutup now and talk about...nothing.....

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TAKE THREE

I'm really tired, and was COMPLETELY wrong this morning! About how I had let go and how he would leave me alone!

Im tired! and dought he will call!! I dont know why but I didnt show how angry I really am at him!

I'm tired ima hit the hay!

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