why is life so complicated! i guess its only ones self that makes it complicated! what about those that surround you?... people always have answers but its never spot on! the answer is always oblivious to the truth that surrounds it! there is so much that is hidden! what lies beyond what you can see and understand? god? i mean you would guess so! but. i dont know! lately ive been contemplatin on how to stop smoking. but, ive gotta want it! i gotta want it more then i wanna continue! reasons for quiting: * im sick of scabbing! and my cousins are probably sick of it as well! * im taking a career in music. vocals to be exact. i mean how ironic would it be if i continued to smoke. i mean, its gonna take alot of will power! hmmm what shall i do differently this time? smokings been a habbit of mine ever since i was 11. im 17 now! its not easy! the habbit is unexplainable! its something im use to. like without even thinking! its just a habit thats in my system and in my brain! its a part of my life style!