Sunday morning

Reached another sunday. I can't believe I blogged so much last night and an error occurs. Anyway I think I'm actually bothered to blog about it. Won't be the same though! And plus I don't evn feel like mentioning what I mentioned last night!

You know what I think you can trust people! You know how everyone say "you can't trust anyone". I think people have too high expectations! I don't know where I am going with this, so I'm just goin to change the subject.

I just got a email from bebo, so I'm gonna go chek it out...............

OML I just came back to start typing and I get another email! It's comments from channy and my cousin Umu! I shall be back LOLOL.......

Finally...Blog time!

Anyway! after this I'm going to eat brush my teeth and shower, then get on with straight up 4 hours of work! Then chill for the remainder of the Sunday. No church today! You never know I might blog again!

Anyway got another email....I shall be back!........

Anyway let's talk about Tongan funerals :) I don't know why! Maybe because I'm thinking about Martin's one. May he R.I.P.

Well when one dies, we have like this week for mourning. Umm there's services at night, at the house of the late persons family! And different churches will come to pray and give their condolences to the family. They do this by bringing mats and praying and singing....pastor reads out from the bible and then they go outside and get a feed, which is prepared by the family to gove to those that have come to offer their condolences. This happens for a week. Then the actual funeral! Preferably starts around 6:00pm and it's an all nighter. AGAIN different churches come in and pastor will preach then that chuch will leave to the hall to have a feed. Again prepared by the family. We have pretty big families so it's not so bad, cooking wise. Then everyone that stays the whole night just sings non stop while family line up to say goodbye! It's scary shit when you don't know the person. I hate kissing the dead when I don't know them. We get forced to, well no one forces me no more koz I'm big girl now =P LOL and they pretty much just sing until the next morning. At around 8:00am or 9:00am...pastor will come and there will be a church service. Then the coffin gets taken out and everyone goes to the burial! We have a little church ceremony there before burying them. Then everyone sleeps for the rest of the day! LOL.

I've had many people close to me pass away. First my uncle! I couldn't even go to his funeral. Then my great auntie. Man uncontrolable tears that night. I was the only one in my family that cried really bad, because she use to take care of me when I was young! And I remember everything! She was the best! We use to play cards and listen to old tongan music. Then...the worst of my losses! My dear beautiful little cousin! Kaloline (Caroline) she was 3! Man it killed my life, and still gets to me. I wrote a song for her. I must say it's the best song I've ever composed! Here it is:(just so you understand the first stanza, her father died! when she was one and the italics? is the chorus "stood on the road" she was hit by a car)

My little divine

At the age of three

she told her mamma

she's gonna go back home

to her father

her mamma never took any notice

koz she was only three

and now her mammas singing

these words to me

My little divine

by the name of Caroline

stood on the road

and said goodbye

we'll never get to see

how beautiful she would be

koz my little divine

left me to weep

Now I'm standing next to her

lying in her bed

I think about all the speacial moments

that we've gladly shared

now I wonder

what it would be like

if she was up and around

I can not stop these tears from falling

as I'm saying goodbye

I know you're up there

in heaven

looking down at me

watching me while I'm crying

over your body

I dedicate this song to you

through my tears

as I'm singing My little divine

till we meet again.

Anyway life goes on! its SERIOUSLY DOES!

I'm gonna eat and do everything I said I would!

That is all